⚠️ Tw: Cursing ⚠️

Sometimes I wish I wasn't so scared
I wish I could live to the fullest extent
To do what I wanted
When I wanted to do it
And have no fucking regrets

But sometimes fear takes ahold of my heart
And prevents me from being human
God, there are so many things I wish I had done
I'll name just a few of them.

To the seniors who left my highschool last year
There are two of you I admired
I never took the chance to make friends with you
Even though that's what I desired.

You pushed me to keep going
To finish show choir out strong
You made me want to dance with all of you
But now you're gone

Away to college, you left for good
And now I'm no longer part of that hood
I've tried to find you to no avail
I'm so sorry that I failed.

To my best friend of 15 years
I am so sorry I ignored your pain
I should've know something was going on
But now its too fucking late

They've done things that can't be undone
And until your eighteen, they'll have won
I'm so fucking sorry for asking too late
I'm not a good friend, I'm a fucking disgrace

To one of my friends who has dealt with some shit
I'm sorry I can't help, but you've also been a prick
Until you grow older and get some mental aid
I can't do much to take away your pain

I'm sorry that I can't do any more.
I'm sorry I failed at helping in your wars.
I'm sorry to myself, for the chances I missed.
And I'm sorry to those who relate to this.