Sighs!

Mentally screams!

Frustration has nothing on me!

I've tried everything!

But yet here I am waiting for something to come that never does!

It's a slight whisper in the wind.

It feeds me a little, then feeds me no more.

It lets me in,

then kicks me right out the door.

This things mocks me!

It even questions my intelligence!

It's the one demon that takes hold of my shoulder and plays as if it was an angel.

Am I nothing more than a puppet on strings being controlled by the beast?

Is the monster slowly taunting me,
so it can slowly watch me die?

Does the pain bring it glee?

It enjoys giving me hope, then drowning me under the fiery of the ocean.

Give and take, that's all it does,

when really it's gave much of nothing.

But I'm desperate, I won't lie.

I want what I want now.

Go ahead call me selfish, but I've worked for the gold even though that's not what this monster is paying.

Is there anyway to escape this fate?

Anyway to truly kill the beast?

Because he keeps appearing and I keep falling for his devilish games.

What have I made of me?

But I'll keep fighting until the knife plunges into the heart of the beast, there will be no mercy.

I will win!

I will be happy!

The hunger inside me will be fed and maybe I'll find all along the beast was me.