I never wanted him to understand me
When I never understood myself.
I never wanted him to trust me
When I never trusted myself
I never wanted him to hold me and prevent me from falling into the pits of darkness
Because I was the one who let myself to fall into its depth.
I never wanted him to love me
When I clearly know that I can never reciprocate his feelings when I clearly know that it will leave him broken when I knew that it will leave him in ashes
I never wanted to break his heart
When I knew the pain

I always pushed him away from me from my darkness from my demons but I didn't know that doing this will pull him into my darkness

He was slowly started to become the reason for my light which slowly started to fade my darkness but did not know that someday I'll be the reason for his twilight.

Now we both dwell in the same darkness where we are so much intimate yet so distant from each other
My demons pulled him into my darkness where no light can reach.