Broken

Verb

2. Having given up all hope; despairing

I know a girl

Who believes she is broken

She thinks she's not good enough for anything

Because that's exactly what the world thinks of her

She knows she is beautiful

She just isn't able to believe it

Only recently has she been able to take compliments

Such as "you're so pretty"

Without laughing out loud and saying "lies!"

She has low self-esteem

She just wants to be able to love herself

To accept that

She is good enough

She wants to be able to love herself

She desires a boyfriend

But doesn't believe it would be possible

To her

Her flaws stand out

Way too broadly

She notices everything

Maybe even the non-existing ones

Her lack of experience in dating

Causes her to fall in love

With romance stories

And love songs

But when her best friend

Tells her that her guy best friend likes her

She becomes petrified

Everything falls apart

She doesn't know what she wants

She knows with everything that she is

That she wants a boyfriend

Because I'm her mind

A boy brings happiness

And she wants to be happy

Like everyone else

Now that this has been brought to her attention

She fears that they are too far in the friend zone

She figures it would be easy to date him

Heck it might even make sense to

But when that story loving mind of hers

That imagination wakes up

She thinks

Wouldn't it be weird

Couples hold hands

They hug

They kiss

Does she want that with him?

Part of her is freaked

She's so used to falling for what she can't have

She's done it all her life

And the three relationships she has had

Weren't real

She wasn't happy

It wasn't real

And wanting what you can't have

It isn't real either

She believes she is broken

She thinks that no one can like her much less love her

So why does he like her

He's the change

That's gotten her thinking

Do I want this?

What do I want?

Her best friend is annoyed

She wants to know why she can't just go out with him

She thinks she's broken

She says "I complicate everything. It should be simple"

Why isn't it?

"Why can't I just be normal?"

She may not realize

Maybe that is normal

Maybe it's as normal as it gets

She wants to ask for help

But she doesn't want her mother to think she's crazy

She wants help

She just doesn't know how to get it

I know a girl

Who believes she is broken

She likes the term broken

It's sad

But she doesn't like

That it implies being fixed

"What if the broken don't want to be fixed?

They're broken

Broken is broken

So stop trying to fix the broken ones

Stop trying to fix me!

I'll be fine

In the end!"

But what if she won't?

She's drowning

In a spiral pool of broken pieces of her life

She wants to be saved

Like in the stories

But she doesn't know how

I know a girl

Who is broken

Think about yourself

Your friends

Your peers

Your family

Think hard

Do you know someone who is broken?

Or maybe they hide it

They don't allow you to get close enough

To see if they are broken

They are grasping for something to hold on to

Do you know someone who is broken?