I love you, but I'm scared

You might not notice it but I'm always there

Loving you with unconditional care

Always meeting you almost anywhere

I may be nervous enough to break

or for you to crack me open

Knife or an Ice Pick?

Go ahead, pick My poison

You might think I'm self-centered

for saying I'm not ready

to spend my life with you

Or to even start a family

I don't know what to say

Cause everything I've said before

Only made you realize how helpless I could be

That I was afraid of being ignored

Like a movie shown on every big screen

You were my Prince Charming through and through

For maintaining a love that could last this long

How was I supposed to make it up to you?

But deep down I know I cannot lie

No matter how hard I try to confess

It seems I've been wasting all my time

Dancing around the fact,  "I'm a mess"

But your bright blue eyes made me realize

I should still try once again

To take this relationship any further

I have to make amends

So forgive me if I'm not committed right now

I'll do my best to make things right somehow

And tell you how grateful I really am

For falling in love with the one man

Who could be so kind and truthful

While I'm ever so ungrateful

Will I ever give up on my childhood?

And If I grow up, would I still be good?

At least good enough that I might just not miss

The opportunity for a perfect relationship

With a heavy heart and a unwavering soul

Trying to move on from all the sadness and woe

Hoping one day you'll forgive me for what I've done

Forgiving me for the monster that I've become