Written on 1 December 2020
Published on 21 March 2021

I was taught to hate
For love isn't so great,
I was taught to suppress feelings.
Most of the times, I only stared at ceilings.

I was taught to be submissive,
I was taught to boost my ego,
I was taught that love is bad,
And I must always let it go.

Now when I always put myself above,
When I can't defend myself,
When I despise the feeling of love,
When I can't express myself---

I became the one with default,
Was it really my fault?
I learned everything they taught
But at the end, I became a naught.
-SanB.
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Okay, WTH I was thinking when I wrote this poem?! I srsly can't remember what I was feeling at that time.
And I literally need lessons on creative writing because I can sense how stupid these poems are! Ö.Ö

PS. The main motive of this poem was to express how confused I was regarding my personality. I couldn't find out who I really was because everytime I would hear different opinions on how I should be. That made me so trustfrated!
Well, it's not like I've found my personality yet.

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