I'm not ok

I'm not fine

But when I need to, I don't say

Instead just string a rhyme

I'm trying

I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying

But I don't know how, when I'm choked up in crying

I pull at my skin

I yank at my hair

I bite at my fist

My emotional problems is one long list

But I don't know how to let it out in the air

So I damage myself within

"You shouldn't cry in public"

"You're being weak"

"Now you're making me feel bad"

When I try to open up the same people shut me down

There are those who tell me it's ok to let it out

But my mind succumbs to doubt

And I instead let myself drown

I'm trembling

Shaky with fear

My head is ringing

I will lose all that I hold dear

I don't know what to do

I'm drowning

I'm falling

I'm screaming

But no one can hear

I don't know what to do

When I'm not ok

When I'm not fine

So instead I type out a jumble of rhymes...