All my life I could never be comfortable being touched
It really made me feel strange
I hated to be hugged or tickled
I disliked if everyone thought it fine to grab me by the hand without permission
Yet as I got older
I met my wonderful friends
Who got me out of my shell
As well as my comfort zone
I was able to evolve
Then I met you
The first man to get me to enjoy the sensation of being touched.
The first one to make me want to feel every fiber of a hug
The first guy to make me want to hold a hand
You made me want to touch
To feel
The first man to kiss me and make me desire a second helping
The first one to make me feel love
Unconditional love
The way my heart sped up every time you looked at me
Smiled at me
Touched me
I knew
It had to be love
Everyday you crossed my mind
Almost every hour I thought of you
You have no idea how many times you appeared in my brain
I almost thought I was insane
How could someone like you make me feel this way?
Yet, my feelings were for not
It meant nothing to you
I know that now
Pity
It was only pity
I know I don't regret loving you
I can't
My sister told me why
Its because everything you made me love or taught me
Its something special
I can't regret you because if I do
I'd be denying all the good things I got from you
Goodbye my love
I will never forget you
Because first love will never be easily forgotten
All my life
I know
You will always cross my mind