Can I be happy for once in my life
Can I smile the way that I used to
I take 2 steps forward to go 5 steps back
I can't have nothing without a set back
Its 2019 time to change
Im not being nobody but me my friend
Can I have friends that I dont have to chase
I didn't know it was a race
Im tired of always being in this place
Im tired of being in this state
Can I even smile this year
I barely smiled last year
Can I ever gain confidence
It's a trait that I lack
Can I ever meet new people
Im still very shy
I barely open up to the people in my life
Im getting good grades yet you don't care
I have stuff to do clearly you don't care
Can I be appreciated for once
You praise the bad children
Yet treat me like trash almost
I can never be happy in this home
Sick of being unhappy and tired
Can I kill myself to make this feeling go away
~Ayanna❤️