I refuse to love the red liquid in my veins or the drum inside my chest

Im afraid to be awake were my head can be at it's best

One reason to stay sometimes makes me want to be alone

And the music that I make can no longer feast it's words in anothers soul

I feel insane with old friends and I push away others who already know

Know that I'm not okay though I lay at a place I know is home

It's nobody's fault but my own

Im afraid of a little love
I'm afraid of having a home sweet home

Cause I swear to god sometimes the voices in my head make me want to go

Explode

Who can I rely on when your gone..