i want to die and then i want to live

i forgot but i can never forgive

these feelings

they take me so high and then drop me so low

i want to revel in this haze

but life decides to give me a blow

it feels like a rush

a hunger to devour and sate the thirst

and then the consciousness catches me alone

all it leaves behind is desperation and distress

a moment of thrill

and then unrest. . .

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-a.