am i in love with you or am i in love with abuse?
the two seem to be synonymous these days. 

i know when i'm not wanted and i stick around anyway. 
i know when you're not going to change your mind and i stick around anyway. 
i know when my efforts are futile and i just keep trying. 

and it happens so often with so many people that i start to wonder who the real problem is.
do i invite toxicity?
do i just seem easy to manipulate?

can people guess by just looking at me how fragile i really am?
that i'm really only ever one loss away from losing myself again?

i try so hard to keep people around and am only ever met with tolerance. 
one of these days i'll learn to fade away.