morning.
i wonder how long i can hold off.
i challenge myself to go longer.
i grab a can of coke to hold me over.
i try to think of what i need to do for the day, but my thoughts are cloudy.

noon.
my stomach hurts,
then it doesn't,
then i sneak away to undo.
i dab the water from my eyes and fix a smile on my face.
no one notices.

night.
my thoughts are cloudy again.
i lay in bed, too distracted to do anything else.
i go to sleep to keep the pain at bay.