sometimes it takes being broken down until you're nothing to realize things will never be the same. 

was age 13 not enough? was age 16 not enough? was age 19 not enough? must we add 20 and 21 to it as well? 

people don't like me unless things are perfect. people don't like me unless i keep it all inside. people don't care to look at things from my point of view. 

people get so angry with me that it actually starts to seem like i'm the one that should apologize. 

so i do, but it's not enough, and that's when i realize that nothing ever will be.