Not even the happiest of songs

And the brightest of smiles

Could bring me up today.

I keep thinking about you.

We work so well together,

But I'm afraid.

Afraid that I'll ruin it all,

Afraid that I'll leave you alone,

Just like they did.

I'm so scared

Of the capabilities I have,

And while they are few,

They are powerful.

Oh, I'm so scared

Of the things I can't control,

Like myself.

And as much as I want to be here,

Staying safe in your arms,

I don't think I can.

I knew this would happen,

Knew that I couldn't stand you.

But it's nothing wrong with you,

It's all me.

You're perfect in every way

And I couldn't ask for more,

But I can't stand to look at you and realize

That I'm afraid of you.