I know this is a poem book, but I'm writing my feelings in here as well it doesn't need to be a poem to tell you how I feel or what I think.
I'm here to apologize to the people I feel like I've hurt or to the people I've fail or to the ones I feel like I've hurt and failed, I'm called worthless and pathetic and I put on a strong armor to hide the fact that I'm hurting I lock all of my pain in the back of my mind and I try to act like I don't care what people think of me and I try to hold in all the emotions and tears and screamed I want to let out and doing so I feel like I've become a different person but I don't know I feel like I've hurt and failed so many people I love and care about.
I used to think about eliminating myself throwing all that I am into a black abyss making it seem as thou I never existed in the first place and the reason I felt that way was because I never felt like I was welcome here like I was never meant to be here in the first place, but recently I've been trying to push all of that away I've been trying to hold up the cracking armor I've been trying to hold down the locked chest of emotions and pain and tears and memories but I don't think I can hold them back much longer, the pain will come back I know it and everything I've ever felt that I don't want to remember will cling to me and I don't want it to because all it will do is hurt the ones I love and me.

I'm sorry @Excitmentbythehart @Jewles_in_pain @Deadlymelodies @Collinster @WxnderLxnd_ I'm sorry. I'm sorry I've hurt you I'm sorry I've failed you I'm sorry I'm broken I'm sorry I'm imperfect. I'm sorry.