Have you ever loved someone so much that when you're with them you can barely breath?

Loved them so much that it hurts just to watch them leave?

It feels like you need to be with them every second of every day

That when they do leave, you get on your knees begging them to stay?

When you're with them you're the best you you can be

But when you're without them, it feels like you're an apple without a tree

You would do almost anything just to watch them smile

You'd even watch as they make their way down the aisle

Towards the man she loves and chose

You watch as her hands grip tightly around the rose

She looks in your direction and she just seems so genuinely happy

She gives the same smile to the man down the aisle and it makes you feel crappy

You watch as they exchange vows and say I do

Then you start feeling that all those times you felt she loved you was never true

You had a feeling that you should've been the one telling her that you'd love her through life and death

It hurt you so much that you almost stood up and left

But you powered through and you survived

With her by your side you're just lucky to be alive

But they didn't work and they got a divorce

She told you she felt absolutely no remorse

But despite that you knew she was hurting so you helped her heal

Holding her in a tight brace didn't even feel real

So a couple of years went by and she married again

And you endured the scene you saw back then

The exchange of vows and the oh so lingering kiss

Makes you think that you really fucked up your chances and missed

More years went by and she married and divorced men with different interest

Usually you would find her trying to find a once in a life time wedding on Pinterest

But despite all that, she felt all alone

People said "You had tons of husband's, how could you say that?" To which she says "To each their own"

You helped each other grow, you helped each other stand

You tried your hardest to make yourself understand

Does she love you or does she not?

She never said but in truth she loved you a lot

And after several years of marriages and divorces

She separated with each to which you said was work of the forces

But as you held her hand with tears streaking down your face as you watched her on her death bed

She smiled her sweetest smile and contently said

In reply to all those years of an unasked question

She said one last thing she failed to mention

"I love you too" and then she died

You gripped her hand and cried

The women you loved all those years loved you too

You were very naive and now you knew

You missed your chances and she was waiting for you to make a move

And now she's gone, someone you knew you would eventually lose

Now you're filled with hatred, guilt and bitter regret

You wish you could just stop life and press reset

Then one day, you saw only black after all those years

You felt that you had died in rush of tears

Then you saw the colourful fire works boomed as you stood by the pier

She looked young like the day you met and she gave you a kiss while saying "Happy New Year"