I can't sleep at night
I can be tired all day long, but as soon as it's time to actually go to sleep
I just can't
It's not that I'm insomniac
Because I'm always super tired and I would gladly sleep
But I just can't stop thinking
I can't stop my mind from going and going all over again
Always thinking about the same things
My problems
Well, they're not really big problems that I can't deal with
They're just big decisions that I gotta make
And they got me pretty confused
I can't seem to be able to actually make a decision
It's just, that,
This isn't just about to decision I gotta make
It's also about the consequences that will follow up that decision
And I have to think carefully about what I'll do
This could a life-changing decision
And I think I'm not ready to make it
So I just don't really try to make a choice yet
And just postpone it until later
But later, after later, after later
Soon I won't have the choice to actually make a decision
And then, I'll be fucked
I know I can't always escape reality like this
But for now, it is what makes me sleep at night
Knowing that I still have tomorrow to think about it
Even if I clearly know I'm gonna have to make a choice someday
And I won't be ready for it