I'm tired, but I can't sleep.
and lately it's been really rough for me.

A few days ago around noon , I got a call.
That my wife gave birth to a baby doll.
But the baby was rushed to the I.C.U, as she wasn't well at all.
I was both scared and happy and I rushed there, as soon as I had kept that call.
I had picked up roses and my phone wouldn't stop ringing, I was so happy to be a father that I couldn't stop singing.

As I was about to enter the ward , the doctor had me stopped.
He had a worried look over his face, and that's when my heart skipped a beat and he asked me to have a seat.
He looked at me and said "Your wife has not got much long life left".
I didn't believe him, but he repeated "She has got very little time left".
Tears started rolling down and the time just froze ,
I couldn't breathe , I couldn't understand what was happening
and I had to slap myself to get out of it.

As I entered the ward , she smiled.
"It's a little girl" she said , as I gave her the roses.
My tears didn't stop when I saw her face. And I just sat right next to her bed.
I held her hand as firmly as I could "I'm here and I won't let you go anywhere" is all I could say.
She smiled at me "But you have to" she replied as she hushed me down.
She gently ran her hand through my hair just the way she always would and asked
"Will you promise me that you will take good care of our little girl?" ,and I just nodded my head.
There was this silence and she broke it  "I finally decided what MY LAST WISH will be." and got excited,
"I want to hold her at least once, and let's take a picture just three of us".

I'm an atheist , I never prayed to a God .
But at that moment , I looked up and I said "God, please help us out".

"Stay close by, I'm scared", was the last thing I heard from her.
And I couldn't tell her, how much I loved her, that I didn't know how to lead a life without her.
So many things inside me died that night along with her.
And I remember her exact words and
I remember the promise, I had made to her.
And not a day goes by that I wish , I could take her place.
And I wish I could tell her "How much I Miss Her".  

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