I deserve what was coming to me.
Every drop of it.
Chained.
Walking.
Crying.
I deserve it all.

Rest my head.
Don't look up.
Murder.

Convicted.
Charged.
Guilty.
Execution day.

Sandra Blakes.
Tina Miller.
Jasmine Hernandez.
John Anderson.
Elizabeth Johnson.
William Anderson.
Patricia White.
Samantha White.
Jamie Oliver.
Austin Brown.
Lily Allen.
Anne Morris.
Sasha Wilson.
Megan Smith.
James Smith.
Tatiana Winter
Alexandra Adams.
Rachel Parker.
Hunter Thomason
Shawn Allen.
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Tragedy incarnate.
For family and friends.
Everyone hates me.
So many.
So many.

I don't deserve any of you.
I don't deserve you all.
All of you.
I don't deserve you.

I shall take my time.
Give my time.
Serve my time.
Obey my time.
Make my time.
Get my time.

Every second.
Won't make up for the days.
Every second.
Won't make up for the torture.
Every second.
Won't make up for the lies.

Nothing will.
How did you still love me?
Care for me?
Enjoy me?
Appreciate me?
Have fun with me?

How?
When?
What?
Why?
Who?

I'm getting my sentence.
I'm getting what I deserve.
A murderer's punishment.
A psycho's torture.

I deserve it all.
I regret it all.
I appreciate it all.

All for you.
All for their families.
All for me.
All for my family.

Suicide.
Cancer.
Fire.
Car crash.
Drowning.
Many other things.

Why them?
What did they do?
Why me?
What did I do?

I deserve it all.

Arrested.
Convicted.
Charged.
Guilty
Sentenced.
Execution day.

Why?
Why?
Why?

Nearly no one remembers them.
Hurt.
Betrayed.
Broken.
Killed.

Who?
Kill.
What?
Me.

So many lost.
Under my disguise of friendship.
In my lies of friendship.
Convicted.
Imprisoned.

Destroyed nearly everyone.
Anyone.
Let me get what I deserve.

Why am I not in prison?
How am I not in prison?

Greetings.
Trust.
Bond.
Friendship.
Best friends.
Death.

It's a cycle.
Let me get what I deserve.
I deserve every drop of what I get.

How did they never hate me?
Know it was me?
Why didn't they hate me?

And soon.
Another shall join.
This one I regret the most.
In a /9_6 5:36 :@53.
I got my graveyard and everything.
So many makeshift graves.
At the lake.
All for them.

I'M SORRY!!!
My daisy.
A flower in the middle.
My dear dying daisy.

Death.
In a /9_7 5:36 :@53.
Ultimate betrayal.
One I plan on not making.

One I fail to understand.
Why them?
What did they do?
What did I do?
What happened to cause this?

They were innocent.
They were kind.
They were joyful.
They were sweet.
They were caring.
They were good.
They were everything good in the world.

Why did they suffer?
Luck?
Fate?
Destiny?
Evil?
Cruelty.
Insanity?
Coincidence?
Misunderstanding?
No.
Something more.

Something.
Someone.
Wants me to have eternal misery.
And I'm determined to figure out.
Who.
Or what.
It is or was.

I will drown it.
I will destroy it.
I will remove it.
It will suffer.

Found.
Chained.
Arrested.
Convicted.
Charged.
Guilty.
Sentenced.
Execution day.

Murderer.
Killer.
Freak.
Cursed.
Monster.
Psycho.

Sweet.
Kind.
Loving.
Caring.
Giving.

What am I doing here?
Who am I to be here?
Why am I here?
Where am I?
When was I here?

Losing memories.
Making space.
For more memories.
Names.
So many names.
I can't remember.
Losing them all.

But don't worry.
I'm getting what I deserve.
What I need to happen.

Sweet and kind.
Understanding.
Interesting.
Cursed.
Impossible.
Dreadful.
Awful.
Liar.