I write these words
Out on my screen
In hope that someone will hear me scream
"It's all too much!"
I can't help but cry,
I'm dictated,
Controlled,
And told soft lies.
Grades,
Those are what matter most,
Physical health too,
But not much else.
Relationships and mental health
Lie low on this list,
They don't mean as much
To those like this.

I'm lonely,
I'm broken,
I worry so well.
Little things become bigger,
Bigger become huge,
Anxiety curls still,
A cold reminder.
I'm hopeless,
I can tell.
It's all anyone ever sees.
I can't comfort anyone,
Can't even make myself breathe.
They could all care less,
Wether I lived or I died,
I'm just a simple shadow,
Forgotten to the times.

To me it feels so lonely,
To feel he doesn't care.
I wish I could've helped tonight,
Yet here I am now.
I worry like an imbecile,
Because he won't reply.
I'm better off forgotten,
Left dead inside the sand,
Since I can't seem to help anyone,
So why would they despair?

Yet alas, I know I have a pact.
I won't let them drown too.
For its me these griefs fall upon,
And it's not theirs to bare.
So I'll still live on,
For them to live too.
I couldn't drown others,
If I drown myself too.
I'll live, I'll live,
For my love, my soul.
Yet,
The urges fall hard,
On nights like this,
I wish I could escape,
These lonely ropes of despair.