Warning Nsfw.
Oh boy...here we go.
  Colin's Pov
It's nighttime , I just came back from buying groceries , i smiled at the smaller male , who is watching the comedy show that he recommends to tony a month ago , now he seems to like it  , he also hugging a computer-shaped cushion((lmao)) for comfort.
"Hey Sweetie..."I called out as he flinched , looking at my arm.
"H-hello..."He said quietly , as i smiled hugging him , "Do u like the comedy show?"I said as i feel him nodding happily.I looked at him but he looked away , i know he's still having issues of looking at each other's eyes but....is he hiding something  from me?I gently rolls up his sleeves ,i feel him flinching as i examined on both of his arms , but no new cuts are formed..
Hmm...who could it be?

"Hey tony...Is there something you want to tell me?"I said as I gently rubbing his hand knuckles for calming him down , he seems to be a bit nervous.
"It's alright sweetheart...take your time ,"I added as i feel him calming down , he gulped as i saw him opening his mouth , i didn't expected this thing.

"I-i'm Ready..."He said , quiet as a mouse.
I tilt my head in confusion."What do u mean?"I said.
"i think to be doing....that..."He said looking down.
That time i heard that , my eyes widened , that asshole made him hate "that" thing so much....
But....i'm not sure if his body can handle it...what if i hurt him...
My thought snapped back to the reality of tony looking at me , desperately waiting for my answer.
"A-are u sure tony....i don't really wanna make u petrified....like...what if i...made you get hurt and-"
A pair of lips connected to me , well...to shut me up..., he stayed  there before letting it go.
  "Y-yes Colin , I think your the right person.I-i-i think i  trust you...Making me Feel loved ,
without the pain....
His words stunned me , i stood up with a worried smile."Okay Tony...but give me a minute to get ready alright ?"I said while running away , flustered.

Tony' Pov
  Colin seems to care about me so much.I sat there while letting out a shaky breath , no many how i hard to get the memories out of my head , i just can't....I just Can't!
  It took like...eternity for me as Colin preparing something , i looked at the window , filling with stars before hearing footsteps echoing louder at the hallway , i flinched at the sound of it looking at it with cautionus , realize it's just Colin.
"E-everything's Ready?"I asked quietly as Colin gently carried me bridal style and kissing my forehead."Yes , "He said with a firm voice , as he carried me to the bedroom.
This is it...I-i finally found him...making me feel loved...

(narrator's pov)

Both males went to Colin's bedroom , of course , the preparation didn't disappointed Tony.
  The room has candles , with red bedsheets and cushions placing neatly at the bed , it's really looks like a five star hotel.Colin smiled , he glads that Tony likes it as the abused male felt the atmosphere is very comfortable.
As Colin carried Tony to the bed , he gently laid him down , then the bigger male climbed him to the top.They kissed from gentle to slight rough , the bigger male kisses him roughly while Tony is kissing back desperately like in a survival acpoclayse.
But colin feels tony's cheeks is getting wetter and wetter."Tony?"He said , "You want me to stop?"
"N-n-no , i-it's just my first time kissing l-like this , "He smiled shyly , The larger male smiled , kissing the smaller male's nose."Of course you're special , you always special to me...."Colin said as he took a gently grip of Tony's shirt.
"May I?"He said while the smaller male nodded.
  Right after Colin took off Tony's shirt , he took his own off too but that time Tony has a flashback , he quickly grabs a red bedsheet and covered himself , causing the cyborg's attention , he gently goes over to the smaller male , "Baby...there is no need to cover himself , you're perfect to me..."Colin whispered while tony snapped back into reality , as Colin caressed his happy trail gently , kissing gently his neck and chest , kissing every single visible wounds , the place where the dirty hands that his stepfather laid.
   Tony hears his heartbeat pounding his ears while he gently touched Colin's musclear chest , looking at Colin's eyes for the first time , Colin's emerald eyes meets Tony's rose red , seeing the man on top of him smiling to make him feel comfortable.
   Maybe....eye contact doesn't always lead to pain....
  Colin seems to feel Tony's muscles tensed up when he took off his pants and taking off his own , He put Tony's skinny legs closer to him.
  "I'm...amazed of how beautiful you are...."Colin said quietly as he gently kisses Tony's inner thigh , where several purple bruises are there , that time he was kissing them , his heart ached.
he knows exactly why tony has bruises on his thigh , meaning that tony struggled to his last breath.
  When finishing exploring his body , Colin kisses his lips gently to tony before tooking off his own boxers and Tony's , causing the smaller male shaking like a leaf.
   "We are not doing that just yet....Let me prep ya..."Colin said as he takes out a bottle of lubricant.
"P-prep , what is it?"Tony stuttered.
  "I will put my fingers in there , it would relax your muscles and feel less pain , "Colin explained while adding little lubricant on his finger , right before Cokin puts his finger in , Tony stopped him again.
"What is it Baby?"
"W-what's the liquid on your finger?"He asked.
"Oh it's called lubricant , it can make your private parts a lot less pain and having more pleasure , it can make things easier , so it's harmless , don't worry ,"Colin said as he kisses his stomach while putting a finger in Tony's hole.
  Tony arched his back in pain , moaning lightly.He never felt like this , the finger in him going in and out , as he gripping on his bedsheets as he felt another finger in there , that time he felt pain.
"agh!W-what is it?"Tony said,
"It's your sweet spot , sweetheart , "
"D-do it again , please..."
Colin smiled as he pressed the same spot where Tony likes it , with a respond , Tony lets out a  high pitched , loud moan.
"Think of a word in your head tony..."Colin said , huffing and puffing because of the kissing.
  "Uh..uhh...Time?"(*coughs*)
"alright , when you feel pain , just yell this word as loud as you can , i will stop it without hestitation."Colin said , smiling when Tony is blushing deeply , feeling comfort and relaxation.

After a few mins of fingering , Colin sliding a protection on his di*k , looking at the smaller male to see if he's ready , he quickly read through a book about...sex positions as he decided to choose the "lotus" position.

(the lotus position is the top one sitting at the bed and the bottom one sits at the top's lap , then the top one is thrusting into the bottom person.okay imma continue the story.)

Colin sat with his legs chriscrossed then he carried Tony to his lap , gently inserting his member into tony's.

"P-promise be gentle?"Tony stuttered as his legs are being spread apart and wrapping around colin's hip.
  "I promise dear...."Colin takes a deep breath before starting to move his member in and out , making the smaller male   moaning .
  Even though Tony enjoys this , but he felt a bit pain but he decided to shrugged it off as he squeezed his eyes shut , trying to replace the terrifying memories and think about Colin , gasping for air.
   Thrusting in and out , Colin seems to move up movement , of course , tony feels the pain increases but not as high as pleasure , colin feels Tony's muscles getting more tense , he heard Tony is letting out a pained cry , he quickly hold him tightly , whispering sweet words into Tony's ear.
   Tony arched his back in pain.
"F-fuck!T-time!TIME!"Tony shouted as Colin cums in a perfect timing everywhere , he took out his member quickly , to check if Tony's okay , but unexpectedly , Tony's okay , but he cried.
Colin holds tony close , rocking back and forth , it seems that the smaller male wants to say something but the larger male stopped him , gently whispering sweet words in his ear and wiping his tears with a tissue while tony is embranced by the larger male , he did not regret making this choice.
   Soon it's getting late , Tony's eyes gets droopy , Colin seems to notice as he gently laid him down and himself , he gently spoons Tony's fragile waist , then wrapped a blanket around them , holding tony close , kissing his nose , he loves how shy tony acts , as he felt tony's crying again , colin is rubbing his hand knuckles kissing his forehead , he loved him so much , nuzzling his nose.
"Baby...It's okay...I love you..."Colin said as he felt Tony is putting his head into colin's  bare chest , hearing his heartbeat.
Tony fell asleep , Colin smiled before drifting off to sleep.

End~
My life has been completed.