Listen to this song while reading this...

I wake up, it's like a hangover, or how I imagine a hangover being. Intense throbbing in my head, my eye swelled up and hurting, my whole body agonized. Come to think of it id rather a hangover. I don't think they're this bad... I could deal with the throwing up, the headache, but this... These scars emplaned on my heart and soul... I can't... Deal with...
"Ah!" I flip down from my hammock when I see Master Splinter standing right there in front of me.
As quickly as I can I retreat until my shell hits the wall.
"P-please..." My eyes are blinded by hot tears, "N-no more..." I hold my hand out in defense and with the other, curl up, preparing for impact.
I wait.
And wait.
And wait.
Expecting some form of punishment...
And then I hear the door shut, and I nearly jump sky high, heart pounding in my chest, begging to be set loose from my ribs caging it in.
Sensei has left the room. But why?
I can't control myself, I melt to the floor and hyperventilate, tears streaking down my face as I sob. Releasing my sea of sorrow and maddening misery.
Suddenly I hear a knock at my door, I tense, thinking its Sensei back with torture instruments or something.
"R-Raph?" It's Leos voice, I keep crying.
I'm surprised when I feel my brothers gentle touch.
"Raph? What's wrong?" I stare up into his big blue eyes... And then I break down, shaking and trembling like a whirl wind of tornadoes forming a hurricane, I can't explain! I can't explain! I'm torn, I'm shattering! I'm already broken! Somebody help I'm screaming in violent silence please! Please! Somebody help me!
Somebody keep me... Safe... And Sound. Safe and Sound...
Safe and Sound.

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