Mirio

We drove to my house, the ride being quiet and tense. I didn't know what to say.

Maybe it was the fact that I'm going to get in so much trouble tomorrow for hitting Monoma.

Or that Tamaki hates me still.

Or that he's not talking to me.

I held the wheel tightly in my hands as I slowed to a stop at the red light. I sighed and glanced his way.

Tama was snuggled up in my jacket, looking out the window with puffy eyes. He looked like he was barely holding on.

Wait..did he even eat?

"Hey..it's okay-" I start, motioning to the glove compartment. "There's some candy in there, go ahead and take some!"

Tamaki looked at me before opening the compartment, looking at all the candy.

I grinned and hummed happily, driving off again. "I got some of your favorites, Smarties, some Kit Kats-"

As I listed the candies, I turned up the heat, making sure he was warm and comfy.

He took out a Kit Kat, closing it up afterward. He looked at it for a moment before muttered a small,"Thank you.."

"It's nothing! Are you sure you don't want to get some more? I don't mind at all-"

He shook his head, and opened the pack, munching down on the candy with delight. He hummed softly in response, already satisfied with it.

Why would they hurt that poor smile off his face?

He started to scoot a little closer, resting his head on my shoulder. He held the treat in his hands, already halfway done. "You didn't have to do that for me.."

"I wanted to. You're mine.."

I relaxed to his touch. I let one of my hands stay on the wheel. Tamaki shyly slid his hand into mine.

His hands were ice cold, and had to adjust to my warmth. Eventually, we stayed the same temperature, but I still felt a twinge of coldness once in a while.

He squeezed my hand gently, each loving word going through my head. "I. Love. You."

"I love you too.." I say back, before lifting his hand to the warm air conditioning. "Get warm. We can stay in the car so you can get warmer. I don't mind at all."

He blushed and nodded quickly, both hands near the air. When he put his hands too close to the hot air, he'd flinch and pull away.

"Careful, I don't need any more injuries from you-" I comment, chuckling afterward.

"S-Sorr-"

"It's the heat, it's not your fault don't worry." I assured. "Don't get hurt and that'll make me happy!"

It was quiet.

"Tama?"

I glanced at the way his eyebrows furrowed and the way his eyes went dark as he stared at me. I knew that look, he was still mad at me.

I looked back at the road and sighed.

"I'm..not getting forgiven, am I?" I asked softly. "I get it. If you didn't mean anything you said in the bathroom. You just wanted to get out. And I was the key to that."

"W..What? No, of course not!" He panicked. "I- I mean I forgive you, but.."

"But?"

"I need time.." He said softly. "The way you touched me..it was scary.."

My heart felt torn out of my chest. He was still scared..of me.

"Okay, I understand.."

"But.." He paused and bit his lip. "You saved me..made me feel better. You deserve some affection. You've always done it for me. It's only fair to return the favor."

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We reached home and I parked into the driveway. Tamaki was finishing another pack of Kit Kats, just as quiet as ever. Was..something wrong?

"I don't want to force you into something you don't want-"

"I want to. You're okay," He fumbled with his fingers.

"Are you absolutely sure?" I asked again.

"Mhm.."

"Ah..well, if you say so, then I don't mind at all." I state, unbuckling my seatbelt.

He did the same before looking up at me with slight discomfort. "But..please don't move. I'm not comfortable..yet.."

"Oh? O-Okay.." I couldn't help my voice from shaking. It was hard to let affection come to me, I've always given the affection..

Now..he's just going to do it himself..?

Don't worry," He took a heavy breath and looked up in my shaky eyes.

"Worry looks bad on you.." He said softly, his hands moving to my neck. I shuddered softly, the warmth catching me off guard. "Tama.."

His hands was warm..so soft.

It felt so nice..like how coco slides down your throat, it felt the same way. The feeling electrified me, but it also made me feel powerless. He was in control, and I was just a mess.

Is this how it feels to rely on someone? To put your heart and soul into someone's hands?

And he leans in, so carefully. Breathing softly, and hearts beating between us and he's so close, he's so close and I can't feel myself move anymore.

I can't feel my fingers or the cold or the emptiness of this car because all I feel is him, everywhere, and all I see is right in front of me.

I felt him start to back out, thinking how stupid it was to try something so foolish. How he's never done things like this, or ever tried to have this his way.

But I loved every second, and I needed to reel him back in. He started off so confident and now he felt so insecure.

No..

His anxiety wasn't going to ruin this, not again.

"It's okay.." I started softly, before I was interrupted.

"Can I?.."

"I don't know, can you? Or are you too scared to offer..affection back?" I mused, grinning slightly.

He chuckled softly, a nervous twinge in his voice. "Mm..not scared."

"Then, what are you waiting f-"

He shut me up and kissed me.

His lips were soft, softer than anything I've ever known, soft like the first snowfall, soft like milk chocolate.

I smiled to myself. Chocolate..

It's sweet, so effortlessly sweet.

I laughed softly. He ran his hands through my hair, lifting his knees so he sat in my lap while towering above me. It was strange, how I had to look up into his eyes. He'd stared at me back, giving me time to breathe, before going in again. And again.

I slowly lifted my hands up, gliding them across his back and down his arms. He flinched slightly, watching my movement. "Is..this okay?"

"Mhm.."

I held his waist tighter, also hinting at the fact that I didn't want to go inside. I didn't want to pull away or let the cold ruin his hands.

I just..wanted him here. In the moment. In this warm car, on a bright afternoon. In the state he is now, vulnerable, and fragile.

I ran my fingers down his arms and kissed his nose, a small giggle coming out. I blushed at the noise, and pulled away, his eyes sparkling in mine.

"You're so sweet..so adorable." I announced softly, running my fingers down the side of his hair. He nudged against it and sighed softly.

"You're..too kind." Tamaki muttered back.

I started to frown slightly, the memory of me drunk crashed down on the bliss me and Tamaki were having. I remember how harsh I was, and how intimidating I'd been.

It..ruined the moment for a second.

Every touch..

Made me feel guilty.

"You are too Tama.." I sighed and moved my hands down his arms, at a slower pace to enjoy each curve and flaw. Too pretty..

"I don't deserve it, I hurt your feelings..I'm not even sure you'll ever forgive me." I admit in dread. "You know I scared you, I'm surprised you wanted to kiss me after everything.."

"You do deserve it," He kissed my nose back and blushed brightly. "Just..don't do it again."

"I won't, I promise."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah, of course." I pressed my forehead against his, taking in the scent, and the feeling.

Pretty

Pretty

So Pretty.

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"You know, I'm really proud of you."

"Proud?"

"Yeah! You've been a great boyfriend, better than me! I've noticed that you've been starting to get out of your shell.." I shrugged. "And so I'm very proud, even if it's small."

He rested his hands on my shoulders, taking everything in.

"Plus, you're the most handsome butterfly I've ever seen!" I exclaimed to him.

He stopped and frowned slightly, turning away. I grabbed his chin and he looked down at me. Worry in his eyes. So much worry and fear.
"..Tama? What's wrong?"

"I'm scared.."

"Of?.." I asked back, chuckling slightly.

"Losing you.."

"You won't ever lose me, Tama.."

"I lose you everyday. When I close my eyes, all I see is darkness, and you're never there..then I get scared. I try to wake up but I'm so tired..I'm so tired.." He muttered softly, resting his head into my neck.

"I don't want to lose the moment we have now.."

"Well.." I thought and ruffled his hair.

He giggled softly and shook his head. "Mm.."

"I won't.."

"Even if you leave me..?"

"I'm not going to leave, you know why?" I questioned, pushing the door open and stooping him up.

He shivered at the cold, and I take the time to rub his arms for warmth.

"..Why?"

I grinned in proudest, teeth gleaming. "Because. I still need to take your last name-"

Tamaki's face reddened and he buried his head back on my chest. "D-Don't say things like that!"

I laughed and teased him, and he just kept getting more and more quiet. I closed the front door and sat on the couch.

"I'm gonna take your heart and were going to have a beautiful wedding! With butterflies and an open scenery! Everyone we know will be there, and you know what I'll say?"

"Mmmm.." He whined.

"I, Mirio Amajiki, will love and adore you forever! And we'll go to the afterlife together, nothing with break us apart. I'll take you to get ice cream with sprinkles, and I'll cuddle you so you never cry. These are my promises and I'll cherish each one and protect you with my life." I state, cupping his face.

He scrunched his nose and I laughed, his face flustered and full of embarrassment. "Do you agree to these promises, Butterfly?"

He giggled at the nickname as a sly grin crept up his face. "Marry me and find out."

"Ay! That'll take too long!"

"I'm joking! Yes I agree.."

"But, for now..." I rubbed the side of his cheek with my thumb. "I'll give you time to get used to this again. And give you space as I can't imagine what I did to you. I don't want you to be scared of me anymore. When the time comes when you're comfortable, it'll make me more happy than you know."

"B-But.." He blinked a few times and kept his hands close to his chest.

"I think things are going to be better for us. Happier." I say softly, letting go of him. I noticed how tense he was, and it only proved my point. "Not now. It's too soon. Do you understand?"

He nodded softly. "But..can we still hold hands?"

I smiled and chuckled. "Of course, I'm not going to ban you from affection. Just..don't force yourself too. Things don't need to go back to normal so fast. Give it time."

"Alright..that makes sense." He answered, smiling up at me.