Jennie

     I walked inside, pausing momentarily to untie my shoelaces and place them on the small rack located near the doorway. I breathed a sigh of relief as soon as I started to walk towards the bathroom. I walked in and closed the door, pulling my phone out of my backpack I set it on the counter and pressed play on my music. I turned the phone off and pulled my shirt off, it was still slightly damp from the sweat that had dripped down my back during practice. I then pulled my legging, socks and undergarments off. I turned the shower on and stepped in, the water rolling down my shoulders. The water began to get warmer, and I let a small sigh escape my lips as the muscles in my neck relaxed and unknotted. Grabbing my bottle of shampoo I squeezed a small amount onto my hand and then transferred both hands to my hair. After a bit of rubbing and scrubbing I let the water carry the bubbles down the drain. 

     "were looking at each other and smiling"  I mouthed along to the words, "it's so nice will you give me this happiness everyday." 

     The smile I was holding started to turn downward, my brain switching to the summer before. The entire football team, and cheerleaders went on a trip to Jeju Island for a week, to celebrate the championship win. Me, Lisa, Rosé, an exchange student that went there at the time, and a senior shared a cabin. I remembered the last day we were there. It was raining and kind of windy, but the five of us were down on the beach. I still have the picture of ma and Lisa together. It may seem stupid as she seemed to have forgotten about us, well me as soon as school started to following year.  I shook my head, droplets of water hit the walls. I grabbed the conditioner and rubbed that through my hair. After rinsing that out I washed my body and turned the water off. The only thing I was thankful for at that moment was the fact that if your in the shower, you can't tell the difference between tears and water.  I stopped the music and wrapped a towel around myself. I walked down the hallway to my room, glad that I didn't have siblings and both my parents had a late shift. I walked into my room and closed the door, I changed into a pair of leggings and a black shirt. Before grabbing my laptop and starting on my homework, the pictures from Jeju island last year hanging on my wall above my desk. I reached for my phone and let out a small huff. 

     I stood up and walked into the bathroom, grabbed my phone, and walked back into my room. I turned some music on, this time from a group called Astro. I hummed along and worked on my assignment for my writing class. We had an essay due, and I needed to get it done. Looking up at the photos I sighed, Lisa had talked to me as if I was one of her best friends. As if I meant something to her, but then as usual she treated me as she treated almost everyone else. As something boring, plain, just there.  It hurt me, but at times I would think she had some sort of feeling for me. Sometimes her eyes would find me and they would look a little different, instead of the plain dark brown almost black eyes. I swore I could find a hint of something, as if she was looking at someone exciting, or something. I bit the inside of my cheek and reached for my phone, turning the volume up. Letting the lyrics replace my thoughts of Lisa.

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1. I'm gonna be honest with you guys, I almost deleted this story, and I unpublished it a multitude of times. I still haven't decided if I'm going to leave it up, and keep updating it.

2. Your girls international ass is going to South Korean, I don't really get to say why. Oh and in case you were wondering one of my officers does read these. Which can get real awkward, but I mean it's standard protocol right. 🤷‍♀️

3. Stop sleeping on Mamamoo, Spectrum, VAV, Hoddy, Jae's visuals, Jay Parks singing voice,  Insooni, Hollands vocals (don't just say "I stan" because he's gay. Like sis please his vocals), the song Coffee by BTS, and even though they have not debut yet, Fallanc. (y'all thought I was gonna say txt. Nope, they haven't released any music yet.) If I forgot someone, tell me; I need more music, and groups to stan sjksksjsjksjk.

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