Monday afternoon
*Tom*
"I will be in Atlanta next week, some reshoots, Luke just informed me. I will miss you so much"
I tell Lizzie as I pulled her into my arms. She had just entered the little cake shop.
"Well it is only a week ?" She looked up from her phone. Cool as ice. Sometimes she baffle me. I am not sure if she is cold, or pulling up a facade not to get hurt.
What do I expect anyways ? For her to cry over my looming departure ? And then suddenly the insecurity sneak in on me. Am I making this out to be something it isn't ? What if this kind of weekend is normal for her ? What if she thinks I'm just out for a fling? Or worse, is she is just out for a fling?
"Tom?" She gives me a questioning look. "Is everything okay?" Am I really that transparent? And I call myself an actor.
"Will you miss me at all..." I blurt out, feeling my cheeks go red.
"Oh... I have to work, help out Tess, take care of the kids. I won't really have time to mope around". She gave me a small smile.
"Liz listen..." I start and then stop.
"Yes Tom ?" She asked. Again I cant read her face. I am holding back a bit. If she is not in the same place I am in this matter, then what I'm about to say will be hummiliating.
"I know this is too soon. And I'm being bold. But do you see us together ? As a couple ?" I ask her. My tone careful and guarded. "My schedule is jam packed. And so is yours I imagine, with job and kids and so on. But, can we try and make this work ?" I continue. I can feel beads of sweat starting to form my forehead.
She smile and then laugh. My ego bruised at her lightness. "Actors... Everything is in the bloody fast lane with you people. You just have to be so intense don't you Tom Hiddleston ? It's Adorable" Her joking response, for some odd reason, annoy me.
"Stop playing games Elizabeth..." I halfway snap. She looked taken aback by my sudden change of tone. Plainly, I am tired of having to make her see again and again. She turned me down every time until the other night. I want her and it's no joke.
"You said you're falling for me. Maybe not the same way that I'm feeling, maybe not as intensely as me. Well this is me... Let's do this..." I let my words sink in. I wait nervously for her response.
"Tom you and I are very similar. We are chained to our work. I am working hard at my career and I want to make the best of it. And I know you do too... Yes we have a connection. Yes we are great together. But..." She says.
"But... There is always a 'but' with you Liz. Are you in or are you out?" I give her an ultimatum. I'm running out of patience. I let go of her for effect and start fidling with my phone and car keys.
"Wait Tom... Let's not make promises we can't keep..." She grabs my hand. I sigh annoyingly.
"Please understand it from my point of view... we are moving at lightning speed here. It's all so intensse. I slept with you on our first date for heaven's sake... I don't do that..." She lower her gaze and shakes her head to show that she's embarrassed.
I cradle her face in my hands. I am lost for words. I know I am coming on really strong. We have technically had one date. "I'm sorry darling..." I gently say kissing her forehead for good measure. I can't force her to feel how I feel. Sometimes being passionate can be dangerous and perhaps an annoyance.
"Don't apologize..." She reply. She pulls me close. Again her action is betraying her words. I force myself to pull back. She gives me a knowing look. "I'm sorry... I don't mean to be annoying. I don't mean to be a tease.... I get how frustrating this is for you. You are so wonderful...I keep waiting for you to realize that I'm just not worthy of you" She gave me a sad smile.
"Lizzie... You are impossible! Don't you see? I worship you. And I get that this is scary. But never doubt how I feel for you". I tell her softly.
"Go do your reshots Tom. I'll be here. Let's give it a try slowly and I will understand if you change your mind" she said her voice barely audible. This unsure and meek person I don't recognize.
I give out a relieved sigh. Oh darling Lizzie dont you see ? I am hopelessly falling in love with you. But I don't dare to voice out my heart just yet. You might run for the hills. Instead I muse. "Change my mind ?! Do you know that I only wear one pair of boots? The grey ones. You noticed those ?" I ask her.
"Hahahahha of course I noticed.. They are, well a bit special. But your fangirls seems to love them." She say smiling.
"I keep asking Illaria, my stylist, to buy me the exact same ones every time they get ruined, I am on my fifth pair now. So you know that I don't change my mind easily" I finished my statement.
"You do realise that you just compared me to a pair of boots right ?" She teases. Her voice now familiar, confident and lovely. Her smile is just for me.
"My point is, darling, I am as stubborn as they get. Deal with it...". I tell her. Pulling her into me, feeling her melt into my arms. Just stop fighting me dammit.

*Tess*
I am watching my sister and Tom. I do get her insecurities. Hell I am deeling with a lot of them myself. Constantly waiting for Zac to realise that he can do better, That I am nowhere enought for him. But seriously if she fucks it up with Tom I will kick her ass.
Talking about Zac, I already miss him so much it hurts. But we talk on skype every morning and every evening and text each other during the day. I have to be able to do this if I want to be with him. And that I do.
He is doing everything to make me feel loved and secure, and it makes me love him even more that he is so considered of my feelings. I just wished these months would hurry up and be done. Even though it only takes us to a new dilemma, him living in Texas.