Let's run run run again! I can't stop running
Let's run run run again! I can't help running
Only thing I can do is run
Only thing I can do is love you

Let's run run run again! It's okay to fall down
Let's run run run again! It's okay to be injured
I am happy enough even though I can't get you
Curse me, this foolish destiny!

Memories are crumbling like
dried flower leaves
On my fingertips and under my feet
And behind my back
Like chasing butterfly or wondering in dreams
I follow your traces
Please guide me please stop me
Please let me breathe

🎹🎹🎹🎹

" So you are telling me that: you met Jimin when you were 10 and he was 8 years old, and that he destroyed your piano at age 10 and when you were 12 years old, and that you didn't like him and even devoted an intense hatred toward him. At age 14, you defended him against his bullies and that you even called him "little brother". During middle school, even though you didn't talked to each other, he kissed you while pretending that it was an experiment and that he was curious, when you were 16 and him 14 years old. In high school you realized how hard Jimin was trying to get into high school so for the first time you did a good deed toward him. When both of you were in high school, you finally told him about your murder in elementary school and after that he hated you as much as his father who was a murderer. He confessed to you that you made him suffer during all those years spent with you and you felt guilty. You went to apologize and proposed to start over and he suddenly confessed his feelings to you. You would rather ignored them and did as if nothing happened and two years ago you discover that he was selling his body. Now, you are 22 and you live alone in your apartment and since then you guys haven't talked, which means that you became even sadder and colder since you were 20."

"Wow, you just summarized eleven chapters just like that."

"I am at the top of the class, I know how to make summaries."

He smiled to me, who was feeling empty and relax. I just emptied everything that was in my burdening my mind, well all but one thing. And he noticed it right away.

"What did you feel when he kissed you those two times?"

"Nothing."

"Yoon Gi... You pretended until now, so talk."

I sighed. I was afraid that he would judge me in a bad way. That in his head, he didn't see me as an introvert guy but as a disgusting and miserable guy.

"The first time, shivers all over my body. The second time, a feeling inside my stomach."

"I see... and for you, what is Jimin?"

"Did I already tell you about the lego metaphor?"

"Otherwise..."

"He is..."

I layed on the armchair made of leather and closed my eyes to visualize him.

"I used to think that old age hasn't affect him in a bad way. His body has become built. He has a muscular back and arms, I am sure that he also has abs. He also has plump lips that anyone would like to kiss and his elongated eyes disappear at every smile. Oh and his smile. Fuck, his smile is gorgeous, and his face on its own look like a mochi. His Busan accent and his behavior make him look so adorable and..."

"Yoon Gi, are you like me?" asked Jin.

"Huh? Of course not! We are completely opposite."

"That's not what I meant..."

He lowered his voice and leaned toward me.

"Do you also like men?"

"WHAT?!"

I suddenly straighten myself up and was reprimanded by the librarian and everyone within a radius of 20 meters. Jin face palmed himself extremely hard. I joined my hands together to apologize.

"What you are thinking of him is exactly what my man thinks of me."

"How do you know?"

"He told my good friend Ho Seok before we became official."

"Oh it's been a long time then."

"Well 5 years ago yes. He was saying the same thing as you. "I'm not gay and all that..." and look with whom I live and share my bed now huh?"

I bursted out laughing.

"But it is true for me."

"Of course." he rolled his eyes. "Seriously, will you be able to look at me in the eyes and tell me that you don't like him?"

I turned completely to face him and stared at him.

"I..."

Jin looked at me, he was waiting for rest. Why couldn't I say it? It wasn't even that complicated. Even though I was screaming it in my head, there was an invisible blindfold on my mouth. Probably the same blindfold that was resting over my eyes for years. That blindfold that prevented me from seeing obvious things. I only realized now. Jimin wasn't living a one-sided love. I stood up.

"I am going to see Jimin."

Jin waved at me with a big smile when I left. I heard him scream:

"This session will cost you a double date to a restaurant!"

I smirked while exiting the library. I started running in the hallways and sliding on the stair railing while avoiding student on my way.