ok so ik I said I'd talk about the family members that are in my good books but I just really want to shit on this girl so here we go.

For starters shes loud, like you could actually here her a mile away, normally talking, loud. and she cackles. which no hate, but the way people sound heavily impacts they way I view them, which is a me thing I should probably solve but right now its helping me hold a grudge. also shes married to a guy 20 years older than her who already had a family before they got married which I only learned about recently (that he was 20 years older I knew the rest of it), and I really don't care that much with the exception that he has grand kids, so she has step grand kids, and we are always compared to them. I spend time on my phone "you know the grand kids don't go on screens when their with family", They give us food "you know the grand kids say thank you". BITCH. THE FUCK YOU THINK I WAS ABOUT TO SAY? AND ALSO THE OLDEST GRAND KID IS 10! OF COURSE THEY DON'T GO ON SCREENS THEY DON'T HAVE THEM! oh- and another thing, everyone, And I'm like EVERYONE (with few exception) has this weird thing with rubbing. like you sit next to them and they put their hand on you shoulder or leg and just rub, and with my dad and mom it's endearing, with my 70 year old uncle its weird, not to mention I don't like physical touch when it's moving, (like I like hugs and cuddles, but the instant the person i'm touching starts moving it's an instant no), but these are my relatives who've been doing this for years, I can't just tell them "can you not". and another thing almost everyone in my family can NEVER admit they are wrong, there is no true apology, politics are brought up and there's no point stating your point of view because you wrong they right end of story, doesn't matter what.

one time I went to NYC for a trip and right after we visited my dads side the family (the side this aunt is on) and I said something about how crazy time square was after leaving a Broadway show, her response "time square isn't on broadway".

"yes it is"

"no it's not"

"Yes it is I was just their"

"No it's not"

tis went on for ten minutes, my dad literally pulled up a map to show her that I, in fact, was right. but she wouldn't have it, she started yelling and screaming and throwing a tantrum about how she was right, mind you that at the time of this pointless argument I was 12 and she was 49! the argument ended with her literally squealing that I was wrong and me yelling "FINE!" and leaving to the room I was staying in. An 12 year old literally had better humility than this bitch did. 5 minutes later (not enough time for me to cool down and be able to forgive her, mind you) she come up and says, and I quote:

"I'm sorry you feel upset" not "i'm sorry I was wrong and instead of admiring it and moving on with life, decided to have a screaming match with a 12 year old". it wasn't a real apology. I never said I forgive you, I didn't say anything, but that didn't matter because in her perfect little world where she could do nothing wrong she walks down stairs and say "We're good!" to everyone. And ik this cause shes so damn loud!

I have never forgiven her, not because I was right but because she'd rather yell and scream at factual evidence then admit shes wrong. I honestly believe the only reason she apologized was to save face with the rest of the family.

oh- and another thing Everyone on both families are so mentally draining, like talking to them actually drains my energy, like one hour of socializing requires 3 to just recharge. I looked up the symptoms of burn out, and I check most boxes, being around my dads side of the family gives me literal burn out. and my only saving graces is bitching to my sister, and my parents and cousin, with them at least I feel I have backing to my voice, without them me and my sister are just screaming into a void hoping eventually they'll her us.

oh and she talks to us like children, I hate being taken to like I'm an idiot, shes all like "oh well you see me and your aunt and daddy's child hood wasn't very good" Like bitch I know your dad spanked you as a kid and treated my dad like shit, don't talk to me like that concept would rattle my world, just tell it to be straight, I want to punch you. EVERYONE on my dads side the fam thinks i'm some little kid who can't do anything or think by myself when really I'm more competent then any of them, It genuinely take so much energy to not cuss them all out. 

like guys, there's a reason my dad only sees you once a year, maybe your the problem!

anyway thanks for listening to my rant, I'm gonna see them this summer so i'll fill you in on details if shit goes south, stay safe my beautiful toucans <3

- Artemis