By:maryclaire321

I remember Augustus's grave stone, if only he were here. He feared oblivion. Battled cancer. He didn't light a cigarette. My Augustus.

I miss him more than anything, it only been three months after his death. He lived a life, short, but sweet. I love him more than anything. If only he were here, my beautiful Augustus.

The cancer in his body, acting like a piece of crap, taking his life away. The monster won the battle, Augustus should of won. My Augustus should have won.

The memories of Gus in a journal I started to write a week after his burial. Writing in it everyday, I look inside.

Entry One-
My world is empty, life without meaning. Not knowing what to do, I lie in my bed all, and remember our corny words, Okay? Okay.

Never knowing what to do anymore I've decided to start this journal, always missing Him.

I flip through the page with a tear falling on the old pages.

Entry Two-
The depression of working everyday continues, never wanting to arise from my slumber. The pain of knowing Gus won't wake up with me is unbearable. He's stuck in an eternal sleep, never able to awake.

I start to cry as I read the pages, entry after entry. I pull my knees to me chest and put my head in-between my knees. Never knowing when the ache of my broken heart will subside. I sit and cry, my mother checking on me twice.

Not knowing how much time passes, I fall asleep only to be startled by my father not much time later. "Hey kid," he says kissing my forehead. I groan and let another set of sobs rack my body, never letting the memory go.

He will forever be in my heart, he touched my mind. He never let anybody down, always keeping a promise. Always staying honest, even when not needed. His eyes always sparkled with the sun, just like his personality.

I love him with all my heart I always will, even if he doesn't. I forget my dad is still in my room, he puts his arm around me,"It'll be okay, I promise, maybe not soon, but it will be." I look at him with a promising look and with sarcasm in my voice I say,"When pigs fly." My father and I share a laugh, I will always share the moments we have, for I could die with the monster, Augustus lost too.

Forever in my heart I will say,

Okay Augustus, Okay