GAMOPHOBIA>> fear of commitment
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Seungmins POV:

I wondered slowly down the path of the hotel garden taken in fresh deep breaths of air with each step as if it would calm the swirling storm of anxiety that's been growing bigger with each dead fallen leaf I pass under the trees, it started as a little stump in my heart making it beat uncontrollably but now it's spread to my brain and I'm scared it's going to make me mess up big time. I knew there was no going back after what was about to happen.

I brushed my cold shaking fingertips across each flower I passed hoping that if I stared at the colours long enough they would paint my skies with colour again but maybe I just needed one person to do that all along. The humid summers air wrapped around my body in an attempt to comfort but instead it left me bothered, hot and sweaty and it made me think, did the two boys feel like this to? Or was it just me?

At the end of the hotel gardens there was a little meadow that would've been beautiful to hold a wedding but then again I wasn't going there to attend a wedding, not at all.

When the crows started squawking as I got nearer to where I wanted to be I began to have second thoughts that maybe I should've called just one of them down at a time but they're not dolls that were made to be played with as I please, they're both humans, beautiful, amazing, lovely, funny humans that deserved to be loved with every single inch of their body and I couldn't be selfish, maybe a heart will be broken tonight or maybe more 2 or 3 broken shattered hearts may lay to rest in the meadow by the time the clock strikes 12 but at least the moon will shine down on a once beautiful life and remember us happily instead of the three teenagers who fell in an unrequited love.

Then in a glimpse there was the boy that I was about to break another's heart for so is it really my fault or is it his? I took in his fluffy icy blue hair and shiny hazel eyes that always looked as if they were smiling. He bowed his head sheepishly as he moved within a few feet of me, glancing around with unnerved eyes wondering where the last boy was, maybe he wasn't coming. I had no idea what was running through his head, had I led him on?

''Minseon.'' I muttered looking at the ground trying to piece together what I was about to say.

''Is it me?'' I stayed staring down at his feet wondering how to explain it in a way that wasn't completely absurd.

''Yes- yes it is you. Why did you ask that question-'' I stuttered kind of thankful when I was cut off.

''Him? It was always him Seungmin. It was never me.'' I turned around at the unfamiliar voice, eyes watering at the sight of the boy that gave me so many good and bad memories, but then again both of them did. Maybe now it would be me giving them good and bad memories instead.

''I'm so sorry Hyunjin, so sorry.'' He sighed while nodding his head as I walked over to him and hugged him tightly as he held me in his warm embrace.

''It's okay, I couldn't blame you after the stupid things I did.'' He stated hugging me tighter.

''Are you sure?'' I asked voice wavering as tears flowed down my blushed and red cheeks.

''yes I'm sure, it was my fault for getting my hopes up, ofcourse I want to ask why him but I think we already know the answer to that.'' He brushed the hair off of my face that had stuck to my damp cheeks and muttered a small 'Thankyou'.

''For what?'' I asked confused as I searched for any type of answer in his eyes.

''For being in that park at 3am and listening to my ramble on about stupid things, Thankyou for staying with me for those weeks because it was the best I've ever had.'' I nodded my head as I wiped away the tears that had began to appear trickling down his heated cheeks.

''I love you but it just hurts so much.'' Maybe something good came out of a broken heart, a cluster of good yet bad memories that helped shape the people we're today.

''I know, I know and I'm the one that should be sorry. Not you.''He painted a sad smile across his face.

''We both hurt each other''

''Indeed we did.'' He murmured into the top of my head as I pulled him into another hug gently closing my eyes and sighing.

''Promise me we won't change.'' I said pulling away gently and holding out my pinky finger, thinking about all the stupid secrets we shared to each other that we would never tell another soul about.

''I promise as long as we live.'' We linked our fingers and held on tightly, before pulling away he placed something round and cold into my hand. Seeing the number on the coin I realised it was the coin that I had given to him for the 'a penny for your thoughts' game, how very childish of us.
''Now go tell that guy you love him.'' I gulped as he span me around by my shoulders to face the smiley boy who stood further away than before.

''I thought I'd give you two some space.'' He spoke quietly as he nodded his head to the boy who stood behind me encouragingly. Finally no more competition, no more sadness.

I walked on hearing the damp grass squish beneath my feet reminding me of all those times we stupidly danced outside in the rain for fun. standing just a few feet in front of him I covered his mouth with my hand before he could say anything.

''Now Minseon would you do me the honour of being my boyfriend?''

''Hey that was my line.'' He laughed accusingly as he took my hand in his and kissed the top of it lovingly. ''But nevermind, ofcourse I would love to be your boyfriend.''

I was a firm believer that everything happened for a reason, but then again when something bad happens hanging on even though you're tired is worth it because in the end everyone gets their happy ending.

Although it wasn't mine or Hyunjins time, but maybe just maybe in our next life it will be. Then we would live with no regrets because we were still young but I was certain that I wanted to grow old with Minseon by my side as more than just my boyfriend.

I was almost certain that to be happy I needed hundreds of friends but now I'm convinced that the only people I ever need are right here in this hotel with me Jisung, Minho, Hyunjin and ofcourse Minseon.

Though I'm happy I know that life would have many more obstacles for me and Minseon to face, but hey who doesn't like a good challenge? Especially the satisfaction after you beat it. And I could never get enough of that feeling. As long as I had my friends and my lover by my side I can confidently say bring it on.

- The End -

A:N/ okay so I updated quicker than expected, as you can tell Minseons chapter is very similar to Hyunjins ending but there were a few different thoughts and ofcourse the text was different! Now this marks the end of this very book. I will be doing a sequel in which I will be uploading teasers for the sequel either later on tonight or tomorrow. I will be revealing the sequel to this books name in the next Chapter I post, the sequel will be based off of Hyunjins ending and lastly Thankyou for all your love and support lovelies! 💖💛💚❤️

- Author Bee 🐝