BETOPHOBIA>> Fear of being in or next to very tall buildings.
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Seungmins POV:

I hung up the phone placing it in my lap, my eyes darted around the car looking for something that would bring my mind back to the present. I heard the car door open and the sound of someone's voice, I couldn't seem to focus.

''Hey Seungmin, you okay? What are you thinking about?'' Minseon placed a cold bottle of water on the dash board in front of us while pulling his seat belt across him, I didn't speak until I heard the Jingle of the car keys.

''Why'd Jisung and Minho invite Hyunjin? I didn't even know they were close.'' I asked completely ignoring his questions.

''I'm not sure, but Hyunjins Captain of the basket ball team and Minho's captain of the football team so I wouldn't be surprised if they were friends.'' He answered as we began to pull out of the drive.

''Did you know that Hyunjin was the person they were bringing?'' I looked down at my phone, it was ringing again. Hyunjin.

''Yeah why?'' I switched off my phone shoving it into my hoodie pocket

''Then when I asked who was coming, why did you say you didn't know?'' I rubbed my hands together reaching for the cold bottle of water, I needed a drink.

''I didn't know at the time you asked me, I only found out last night. I was going to tell you when I found out but I completely forgot.''he added looking over at me worriedly as I almost downed the whole bottle of water.

''Oh'' I replied my voice coming out as a quiet whisper, I never meant it to be that quiet.

''Why do you care about it being Hyunjin anyway? What happened with you two?'' He questioned as we sped down the high way (I'm on the high way to hell dundun, lmao sorry)

''Nothing happened between us two.'' I lowered my head playing with my stone cold fingers.

''You sure?'' I sighed looking out of the window and placed the back of my hand on the warm glass feeling the sun heat up my chilly limbs.

''I'm sure, I barely know the guy.'' I reassured looking at Minseon through the wing mirror of the car, he was smiling lightly as if he was relieved. What I said wasn't a complete lie. Have you fever felt like you know something so well and understand it so deeply then realise that you know nothing about it in the end? Because that's how I felt about Hyunjin after what happened.

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We arrived at the airport 15 minutes after Jisung, Minho and Hyunjin did. I haven't seen or spoken to Hyunjin yet because as soon as we got here he was in the bathroom and then we all split up to get food, me and Minseon wanted Sushi while the others wanted Kimbab. I don't know if I'm happy or upset that I haven't been able to see him, is he avoiding me? No he mustn't be because otherwise he would've said no to Jisung and Minho.

I gave Jisung Hyunjins hoodie to give it back, I don't ever want to see it again. I bet he's going to give it to the girl he had been all over, her name was Jisoo. I don't blame him for loving her, I've spoken to her before and she's lovely she's perfect and most importantly she's a girl. Hyunjin would never want to be seen with a boyfriend, after all he doesn't want to be known as the 'gay basketball captain' it's rather sad.

''Seungmin are you okay? You've  been out of it a lot today'' Minseon placed his large hands over mine bringing me back to reality, I've been spending to much time in my head lately.

''I'm fine Hyung, really.'' I squeezed his hand as if in a reassuring way as he held my hand gently, he smiled again, he seemed to always be smiling.

''Seungmin if you didn't want to come on holiday with me you could've just said. I don't want to bore you.'' His eyes dimmed and his grip on my hands loosened. I held his hands tighter.

''No no no. It isn't that trust me Minseon I want to go on holiday with you more than you probably do.'' I answered pulling him to sit beside me in the booth instead of opposite me.

''Then what is it?'' His eye brows creased as he tried to figure out exactly what it was.

We sat in silence for a moment, I couldn't  tell him about Hyunjin.

''I'm just worried'' I mutter looking down

''Worried about what Seungminnie?'' He pouted making me laugh, he looked cute.

''That when we get to Japan that you'll change your mind and you won't want me there.''  My eyes stayed glued to our intertwined hands under the table.

''Aww, I won't change my mind don't worry, i quite like having you around.'' He reassured while chuckling lightly, his laugh was so light and pure, it was like the first breeze on a hot humid summers day, it was like smelling flowers for the first time after having a cold.

He lifted my head up and stared into my eyes.

''Promise me you won't leave me for him.'' He said slowly his dark intimidating eyes burning into mine.

''I won't leave you for anyone I promise'' I grew confused, who was he talking about. ''Who's him?''

'' It doesn't matter, he won't win you back after what he did to you anyway.'' Minseon sighed in relief as he spoke, was he talking about me and Hyunjin? But how would he know? And how would he know about how I felt towards Hyunjin?

''Minseon who's him?'' I asked again growing agitated, I want to know who he's referring to.

''We both know who he is. He didn't make you as happy as I do though does he?'' He was talking about Hyunjin, but Hyunjin did make me happy, he made me feel like I was dancing on clouds and crying rainbows he made me feel like I was important and not a kid from a messed up family.

I was thinking of things to say, I didn't know what to do.

''Seungmin?!'' The voice was loud, it sounded mad but it also sounded confused.

We both looked over.

Hyunjin.

''Can I talk to you for a second please?'' His voice was softer now and his eyes looked sad, to sad.

I looked over to Minseon to say that I would only be a minute but he was to busy murdering Hyunjin in his head.

I got up ignoring the tug that pulled on my wrists.

''You said you wouldn't leave me.''

''I'm not leaving you Minseon I just need to talk to him.''