''Why did you stay back, flower?'' he asks with his sinister smile lining his lips again as he looked at the side of my face, his hands digging deep into the pockets of his ripped jean.

''Because you are my brother and I care about you, numbskull!'' I cuss flipping my hair backwards, squinting my eyes at him, does he ever smile? All I have seen him do is smirk, never smile completely.

''You care about me? Of all the people in the world ana?'' he asks halting abruptly making me stop too, I looked at him frowning, he grabbed my jaw using his thumb and index finger and made me look up at me, I couldn't answer as my breath hitched.

''I guess yes, Allerd'' I whisper softly making his grip tighten, but his face gave out nothing it was still hard as stone. 

My heart raced as his thumb rubbed circles on my cheeks, even though I knew he just had sex with some random whore, it didn't matter right now, his eyes zeroed to my eyes as he looked at me deeply, his fingers walked behind my head and soothed my head softly, I felt .. warm.

My eyes widened in pain as he gripped my hair tighter as he threw me onto the cold floor, hard, a sharp pain went up my leg as I bruised myself, I looked at him as tears blurred my vision, his face was stoic. 

I clutched my leg painfully as a whimper left my lips, why did he hurt me? What have I done? He developed a cigarette from his pockets and ignited it with his lighter and placed it on his lips, it hung loosely off his dangerous lips. 

He simply walked, blowing smoke onto the air while I was a fool to wait for him, tears streamed down my eyes as I held my ankle on the empty school premises. 

That is when I felt someone place their palm on my shoulders, I looked back into a much more darker pair of blue eyes, eyes those had life, sparkle, love and warmth, James.

''You ok angel? I warned you to come with me, and stay away from him, he might be like my brother, but he is not a good person, don't try to change him, because you can't, trust me, we have tried'' he whispers before picking me up in his arms.

I clung onto his jacket as tears streamed down my eyes, painfully.

***

I walked through the busy streets of paris filled with tourists, the Eiffel stood like with splendour in front of me, its magnificence entrancing me, this is my safe place, I sat on the stone that helped me see the Seine more beautifully. 

I looked at the water flowing powerfully yet so serene, I pulled my jacket arms and saw the blade scars running down them, I softly ran my fingers through the slightly raised skin as the never fading scars painting my hands. 

A tear slipped from my eyes as I remembered the painful nights I spent hating myself, for being so impure, for being a filth, a shame, a disgrace to my family, I was scarred by a monster, ruined, touched, used, thrown away by a monster.

I remembered those times when I tried to kill myself and nearly succeeded in it, from that fateful day I knew that love is dangerous, and loving a badboy is more dangerous, and from that day I became a survivor who came out alive from the arms of a rapist, just alive, but broken, tainted, ruined, scarred, by the rapist, and the pain increases when the person whom you loved the most did that.

And I couldn't believe that I met a monster just like him, Andrew Jones, the boy who tore my life, my innocence, my soul and my heart into shreds like it was nothing. And the one I met now is not different, Gabriel Allerd is just a monster like Andrew.

''Ana?'' I looked up at Jeremy, a good friend I found at school, his messed up brown curls swaying in the wind, he sat a few paces away from me because he knew I had Androphobia, the fear of men, except with James because he makes me feel safe.

''Hello Jer'' I whisper wiping my tears, after Andrew, after what he did to me, men frighten, especially Gabriel. 

''Why are you crying Ana? Is everything alright?'' he askes sincerely looking deeply into my eyes, I sniffle.

''Yeah am fine, just cold Jer'' I lie rubbing my palms, it was freezing.

''Ana yo-'' before he could say anything a voice interrupted him.

''If you're cold Diana, come home, don't you know your mother is worried for you? Come with me'' I froze when I heard the devil's deep voice, tears fill my eye as I looked at Gabriel huge frame walking towards.

''Ana? Isn't this Gabriel Allerd?'' Jeremy asks, his voice quivering with fear as he looked at him, I nod simply.

Gabriel bends down and pull me up roughly, his grip hurts, he eyes Jeremy to go away, and he did, such a coward. 

His grip tightened on my wrist as he pulled me with me, I stumbled on the stones and begged him to stop, but I felt his jaw clench and his grip hurts, so bad that tears streamed down my eyes.

''Gabriel, stop, stop, please stop dragging me, please it hurts'' I yell as I fell on the ground with a thud, pain shooting up my body.

''You clumsy girl'' he cussed as he pulled me up, his hand coming around my neck chocking me. ''You nearly got me killed when James complained about me to your father, if you want to stay a moment in that house and don't want me to kill you, better shut your mouth, understood?'' he snapped tightening his grip, his rings digging into my neck, tears streamed down my eyes and I held his wrist for him to let me go. 

''Y-Yes I understand, I-I d-do Andrew'' I whisper accidently, Gabriel remind me so much of Andrew, he is no different, his is a monster.

''Who the fuck is Andrew? Don't think this is a way to get away, girl, you won't get away'' he cussed leaving my hand and twisting my hand, pasting his chest onto my back.

''You will never get away from me'' he whisper on my neck, his voice venomous, I knew for once and for all that, when one devil left me, another one grabbed me into his web of cruelty. 

***

Ouch, painful huh?

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