a/n: heeey guys

sorry for my inactivity but it's really hard to write a oneshot I'm proud about and I'm sure I want to post, I'm always like "that's bad I don't want people to read it" so

but I'm working on a new story, it's going to be good I promise; I already like it \(ᗒ‿ᗕ)/

no spoilers

enjoy this oneshot and,, I'm probably taking a break from this book unless inspiration, motivation and modestly punch me in the face

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dan bites his lip, he's nervous. not because he's about to confess his feelings to his best friend who has a girlfriend and is straight, of course.

he feels so pathetic for this but he has to do it, he knows that if phil doesn't want to talk anymore he's going to be sad or something but he had a crush on him since years and he doesn't think it's just a simply "crush."

it's full of beautiful boys in his school, boys who are single and can afford it. but he had to fall in love with phil because everything just hates him.

so when phil walks in the room dan looks at him head to toe and smiles.

"dan?" phil asks and sits on the couch next to him. "hi."

"hi," dan says too biting his lip. "um, how are you?"

phil giggles. "good, but didn't you had the football lesson today?"

"kinda, I said I'm sick because I didn't want to go."

"idiot," he smiles. "well, what did you want to ask me?"

"do you-" fuck, is he really doing that?

"do I?"

"do you want something to eat or drink? it's hot outside, maybe you are thirsty, I don't know," dan blurts.

"oh thank you, I would love to have a glass of water," he answers and dan nods getting up. "but I'm sure you didn't invite me here for asking me if I'm thirsty."

"no, of course," dan answers from the kitchen. he's going to die. maybe he should just.. stop here or lie, maybe.

"thank you," phil says when dan hands him the glasses.

"how's everything with sarah going?"

"I love her a lot," he answers and drinks.

"that's good," dan smiles. maybe someone punched him in the chest because after what phil said it hurts. "I, want to tell you a thing."

"sure."

"but don't get me wrong, I'll explain," he mutters.

"just say it," phil giggles.

"I.."

"you?"

"you make me feel anxious!" dan says in frustration.

"sorry," phil answers with a smirk. "you know you can tell me everything."

"that I'm gay, maybe?"

"oh," phil says. "that's.. okay, it's okay, dan."

"I know but it's not just this," he whispers and bites his lip. "I like someone."

"who's him?"

"it's, you," he says and looks into his eyes, phil looks confused.

"me?"

"yeah."

"I have a girlfriend."

"I know, I don't want you to do anything with me. I just wanted to tell you," dan says and smiles.

"why didn't you tell me before?"

"maybe I was scared?"

"there is nothing to be scared of," phil answers and looks away. "but I like girls."

"I know you do."

"you're my best friend, I don't want to lose you," phil finally says and dan smiles.

"I don't want to lose you too," he adds.

"I'm sorry."

"it's okay," dan whispers. "I knew it was going to happen."

"I'm not rejecting you, don't get me wrong," phil says and raises a brow. "I love you as a friend."

"friendzoned," dan giggles.

"are you crying?"

"no, maybe."

"you are," phil says and puts his thumb on dan's cheek, this makes him shutter. "I'm really sorry."

"it's okay," dan answers again.

"if it was you shouldn't be crying," phil mumbles. "it's because of me."

"it's because of me, I'm the one who's wrong," dan says crying more. phil says nothing and hugs him.

"you're not wrong," he whispers and dan hugs him back. phil's phone sounds in his pocket.

"you should take it, maybe it's her," dan notices. phil goes away and looks at the message, it's from sarah and dan smiles. "see?"

phil looks at him and approaches placing his lips on dan's forehead. the younger boy feels like he could cry, if he already wasn't. phil kisses his forehead again and smiles. "she wants to see me."

"go, then."

he goes away still looking into dan's eyes. "you're going to find someone who loves you, I promise."

"thank you," dan answers and smiles. phil nods and gets up, he answers at the message and looks at dan.

"see you."

"see you," dan says too.

phil smiles and goes away. in the meantime dan lays on his bed and brings his knees to his face still crying a little.

"you're going to find someone who loves you, I promise."