Emoticon, you are the one.
😏
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I was extremely elated after receiving Phil's number and I couldn't wait to text him but I'd decided to leave it until after school so I didn't seem too needy.

As soon as Maths ended at 3:10, I dashed back home, throwing my stuff aside and sprinting upstairs to my bedroom before grabbing my phone out of my pocket and opening up my contacts section.

"Phil :]" was the name he'd saved for himself. I don't know what's up with the square bracket smiley... Eh.

I tapped out a message excitedly:
"Heyyy, it's Dan. Watcha doing? :]"

I almost instantly got a reply. Wow, he must always be on his phone... Just like me... Heh heh... ':L

"I'm texting u, silly. What's up with the :] face?"

That confused me, he was the one who used it first... In his contact name of course.

"U used it in ur contact name, Remember?"

"Oops... Hehe well u kno wat :] means right?"

"Um no O_o"

Please don't tell me it was the rape face or something... Oh god.

The last thing I needed was to accidentally send my crush the international pedo face, known for ultimate pedophilism.

If that's a word...

"Well I use it bcus on Skype it's the shortcut for the- nvm gtg soz :]"

Wat

O_o

HE CANNOT LEAVE ME LIKE DAT

THAT SHOULD BE ILLEGAL

Why was he happy about leaving?!

NU!

What's this shortcut emoticon on Skype that he was on about anyway? I had to know.

I immediately opened my Skype on my laptop, eager to see what Phil meant by the ':]'

I typed into an empty chat that everyone had left.
(My inner loneliness is showing)

:]

I pressed enter anxiously.

My eyes popped open, gobsmacked.

The emoticon that displayed on the screen was an innocent yellow smiley that had a few red hearts floating around its head, making the emoticon close its eyes and smile.

Oh

My

God

WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?!

Phil LIKES ME?

Or does he think I LIKE HIM?

Or OR...

I should stop fussing.

I was really nervous and confused, and it bugged me that currently he wouldn't be able to respond to me because he was busy, meaning I'd have to wait a while.

Regardless, I send him a message:

"Hey, I know what :] means. Wat did u mean by it tho? o3o"

As if he knew I'd figure it out, he immediately responded. I guess he didn't have to go after all...

Meanie pants.

"I meant what it meant, duh-erp. U turnip :] x"

AHHH
AHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

K-K-KISS

AHHHGHGGGFDSFFGGGGGAASFGK

I SWEAR TO GOD MY HEART FLIPPED AT LEAST 20 TIMES.

"Pfft ur supposed to be straight lol :]"

I wondered how he'd respond to this, he knew I was gay but was he?

Ach I wanted to know so badly.

"Maybe I'm a bit bent around the edges... Or entirely crooked ;]"

WAT

R

U

KIDDIN

BRUH

"Omf o_o r u srs?!"

My heart was racing so fast, beating at an unnatural pace, thumping viciously in my overwhelmed chest.

"Would u b embarrassed if I said yes? :P"

My head was whizzing around in a bubble of confusion.

Was he messing with me?
He can't be... He's too nice.

"No. I just thought u were straight... U always admire Amy in class </3"

It's so true though, maybe he was lying, it's so obvious he likes Amy. I bet he was playing with my head.

"Tbh she's just a 'cover crush'. I guess I didnt want ppl to dislike me cuz I was gay. So I kinda pretend to b infatuated with Amy."

Typical. He thinks his friends will turn on him if he admits to his sexuality. That's stupid, they aren't real friends if they did that.

"That's confusing tho... You never look at me in class... Ever :["

"You must've missed me... x :] Hey anyway I wanted 2 ask if u were free this Saturday bcus I'm going to my friend's to hang out and they said we cud invite others and make it a mini party kinda thing. R u free?"

I did not see that coming...
I felt like I wanted to collapse.

My crush... Technically... Asked me out.

(I'm going out the house to go there so that counts as asking someone out I guess... Lolzor)

"Omg yes pls! xx"

"Gr8 m8 I'll see u @ 8"

"Wow. xD Where do I meet u tho?"

Ooh maybe he'll pick you up at yours Dan... Oooooh la-de-dah

"Uhhhhhhhhh I can pick you up at urs. Wats ur address (ain't no stalker trust me) xD"

I loved him already...

Dan calm down.

I'm such a horny cow sometimes.

Ach.

I sent him my address and I said I had to go because I realised that I seemed very eager to meet him again so I decided to leave it until school when I could actually speak to him face-to-face.

I was so freaking happy.