here's a new entry for you to steal kidd (youknowwhoyouare)

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snuck in my buzznet and forgot to mention them before. is the wallpaper better in the first one than when i took those um artful pictures? haha.
and there are some shirts you wear and some shirts that wear you. is one of those.
you will see what i mean.

right now i am: scared and excited to play in front of 80,000 people at reeding and leeds.
five minutes ago i was: letting you win.
but you're not(hing).
the sleep i haven't been getting lately due to flying pretty much everywhere but home is pulling down my eyelids.
it is trying to tell me the right thing to do.
"go to sleep."
but it doesn't ever come to me.
he is the one that brings it to me, tucked behind my ears with my hair at his fingertips.
ever knew someone that could talk you out of every belief you've ever had without saying a word?
i'm the bad kid on the good team playing against the bad team full of the good kids.
and either way we both lose the game.
but i don't care whose field we're on because i am the mvp.
you will learn that.
take your next shot, if i still stand after the first one take another hit. lined up and ready.
just because you're up for bat doesn't mean you're getting any points.
so for now sleep with this on your conscience and your teeth dug into the nightstand.
oh sweetheart, i want to kiss your forehead but you'll be on your deathbed.
just keep your eyes close(d) and believe the lie because the truth will leave you crying.
you may have made the bridge but we burned it down and rebuilt it better.
you are not your status.
we come to a roadblock that makes us stop for a second but we always keep going.
there is a way to resolve everything.
hearts are everywhere and we are watching.

xo.

ps- for those of you keeping score, this makes entry numero 72 since january.
that means stick with me and keep me added because i'm not going anywhere until i am ready to.
and that was not to start a fight, just to stop the questions of weither i am leaving or not because some people do care.

edit-

just for you. i love my dog.