back in black (and blue and a few other colors lol red like blood)

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and bleedz on your floor.
did you really think i was down for the count? that i was gonna give this journal up?
c'mon.
i mean, i made it out of best buy and all.
i am pretty much unstoppable.
new killers cd is amazing, new cobrastarship is amazing.
speaking of-
we took a fob fieldtrip (complete with a short little yellow bus) to see the cobrastarship and the gym class heroes not too long ago.
we took the f(ag)estivies to the road.
patrick stayed behind to work on the cd without us so i took him to the chainsaw awards-
we were both pretty much disappointed there were no rednecks with chainsaws or dudes in masks.
what a letdown but it was still fun, we ran around with the little awards trying to stab the 8 year olds.
they just don't show that on camera or anything.
i also decided it would be pretty rad of me to wear my hair like i was covering up a bald spot. did it work?
oh and thank you for the away message shaant- i am kind of glad to be back too.
i sit around and think far too much about home.
i think too much about what i cant change.
whats already happened.
"think of it this way..." she said, "it's better to be heartless because then you don't have a heart to get broken."
well, duh, but you never say it so brass.
"so take my lungs away too."
cept i'm always afraid when i look in your eyes i'll see him reflected back.
i'll see that i'm not myself, that i'm not who i used to be.
and this is not what i wanna be.
i miss and in no order;
home.
touring.
you.
who i was when i was with you.
april 1st- but not the way it was a day for everyone to be fooled but we felt like the only ones.

xo

pee ess (why does the way you say a letter have to have its own letter in it? like a is ay or whatever... i dunno)

Patrick: I dno't have anything to update about except the album
Pete: Dont you talk about our baby like she is nothing, she will hear