"i guess that means i'm a drug" 

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Mood:peachy keen

  what is that.

i hate when i really have nothing to say and by now i should seeing as i haven't updated here in like 3 days and my update is incoherent. silly pete, what is an ariplane.

so between stalking away messages, hitting f5 on brendon's icon page cause his away message said he was updating and making plans to have plans i have nothing going on like at all really.

gotta admit tho... i'm kinda getting bored of l.a. already. i hope this wears off cause i really would like to live in california someday. i've been looking at houses and i can't picture myself in any of them cause i don't really want to live alone and i can't picture myself moving in with anyone else. does that make sense? like when i move i always thought it would be with my girlfriend or something. or maybe patrick cause i've lived with him before. i dunno. i guess it isn't so bad living with your parents at 26. really. i mean i'm out on tour pretty much most of the time anyway, so like it saves a lot of rent. and if i had my own place i'd come home to expired milk and stuff and blah. no need for that.

i dunno what else to cover- hopefully not joy division or the police again haha. sorry. i'm really hoping i get to hang out with this one girl soon that's waaay too far away from me for my likes. new crush. stay warm. i can't wait to see my friends p!atd and the academy is again, but i'm glad they got to come out and stop by the video shoot. for now maybe i will hang out with lizz since she is in l.a. and isn't as impossible as i'm finding most girls around l.a. are. i think i like watching from a safe distance. you can pretty much take that how you want to.

sometimes i take for granted the best parts of my life cause i'm too focused on the bad stuff so i guess i wanted to say thanks to anyone that actually cares when im not in a good mood and ims my away message to ask how i am. to those that havent- see if i ever care when youre down again. i probably will though cause i'm just that kinda guy. my therapist says i'm sane. i think they are paid to say that.

i don't really have a lot to say about valentines day. i talked to everyone and by everyone i mean joe, ryan and brendon - about how theirs went and helped joe plan his out so my amazing ideas didn't go to waste. i spent the day with patrick since we had made a joke a few days earlier that we were each other's valentines. it went pretty okay. this entry is pretty much shitty i dunno why i'm still typing to be honest with you.

it's said so much it loses meaning but i'm tired of being tired. i don't want to get under your skin i just want to get in it. i don't mean to drive you so crazy. i hope i get to see you soon.

William Beckett's sn: want to get drunk

sure i took that out of context but i'd like to take him out of context too. hehe.

William Beckett's sn: hmm let me investigate
William Beckett's sn: clicks

you know i think i just love listening to william talk.

xo