baby wont you come and take this pain away

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the nosebleed seat on the shelf im collecting dust at is starting to get (c)old. take me down and out, remind me what its like to hold your body close to me. a mess of skin and bones where emotion and feeling used to dwell but its slowly finding its way back. my mind is a sticky mess and youre stuck in it.

everytime i think im starting to feel something real the medicine wears off-
give me a pill but in the form of you.

i want to make decisions, not let them make me. i have been trying to please everyone but ending up feeling empty. your lips are pillows for my thoughts to fall asleep on. i wanna know what its like to be you- i want to know how it feels to be this important to someone because i really doubt i ever will get to know it from my own experience. maybe i just ask for too much. cross yr ts and fingers not yr friends and lovers. be my tonight- be my everything. i cant live up to what im dying for. despite my ever changing mind and moods- apparently i can only be one person, following whatevers left of my heart.

sometimes i want the past back-
othertimes i wanna get past it.
sometimes i want a new girl-
sometimes i want a knew one.

the sun goes down but not spirits, maybe ive been haunting your thoughts. my body is a graveyard for hopes that died too soon. give me a love im enough for. i want to hold your attention, but for now ill settle for your hand. your skin looks amazing in the moonlight- stuck in moments like these where i could be writing something amazing but i dont want to take my hands off you. ill let a few good lines go for a girl that i cant. besides the lines sometimes come back to me before she would. tell me what matters at the end of the day- an empty page or an empty bed? we can all agree what hurts worse. you cant blame me for holding on- im just a lil afraid youll disappear like our footprints in the sand by the shore. dont think too much into this entry or the people it might be about- mostly this is hopes and this is dreams. mostly this is a week of confusion hopefully coming to an end.

everything in life as an experation date-
so i want a love that will outlive you and me.