patrick's sn here: YOU'RE NOT FUNNY

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i was bitching (whoa big shock, i never do that) to martin a few days ago about how all the cool kids and patrick had updates due. if i update now i get to watch you guys all sweat and push for extensions while i have a few extra days. plus i want to update now and in a week i might not want to- besides i only have a week and a half to go so i figured i would do a little one before i head out to fn mtv this afternoon and start filming. besides i updated ahomeboyslife.com (i like how i link it like anyone will go there) like three times already today so whats one in my journal?

honestly i'm excited to film tonight but i don't think anything can top the last fn mtv, diddy was insane and cracked everyone up- scared james montgomery a little but all in all an amazing show. the best one so far, but this week's show gym class heroes will be performing so it should be great too. if you ever want a sneak peak at who is going to be on the next shows or even a ticket to come out and check it out you can get all that here.

ie is pretty much unuseable anymore- is that even a word or did i make it up? so ive been clearing out my old bookmarks and saving things to firefox instead and came across this site i thought i'd share. this is the first: [link] it's basically astrology profiles for "famous" people (sorry jamison). i say famous in quotes because even my band is on it and it's weird we're considered that. i mean from the pic they used they did this shit a few years ago too so that is what makes it really weird. i haven't seen one that i didn't think really fit so far but i don't know too many people that are "famous" enough to have one of those. like i guess even people like jess and martin aren't listed either, but like mila and avril are, so you might be able to find yours. mine is pretty accurate, if you have one tell me what you think about it.

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this was in my bookmarks too. i haven't played this game in years, i forgot how addicting it can be. oh yeah- addictinggames.com. duh. all you have to do is hit your spacebar and see how far the kitten can go and theres traps along the way like venus flytraps and then missles to make it fly farther. if you think too far into it its kinda fucked up. like if it was with dogs and not cats id probably have had a problem playing it haha.

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you type in the word you want to rhyme with something and it gives you a huge list of shit. like i'm still laughing over "charge sheet" "jerked meat" and "prickly meat". i'm going to send this in an email to kanye and ask him to stop writing good songs with meaning and make one based on my name.

i wish trl would show whole videos, not for all 10 but at least a few of them. i see some of my friends excited about having a video played on it and i hate to be a donnie downer about it but why? you'll be mentioned once, played for 15 seconds and then there are 5 minutes of commercials. i feel lucky to be a part of the only show on mtv that does, and a few years ago i remember being stoked to have our videos played on trl (even though we would always be second to kelly clarkson)- but no matter where you place your video is always only like 15 or 30 seconds. the more i think about it i wish that is what i had tried to change. don't get me wrong i love trl, i love the concept of it, but it's unbearable to sit through. i think the top 3 videos should get played in their entirety. that would be a real incentive for getting to be in the top 3 and like bonus exposure for your band and song. i think maybe if enough people speak up and maybe if i put in a word the next time i'm at mtv and we're discussing fn mtv, that mtv will consider that. either way at least fn mtv is encouraging people to make videos again and know they will be seen somewhere besides mtv at like 5am or youtube until it's taken down for legal reasons.

patrick it's the 13th. times that by three. and the cure song we remixed released on the 13th. and and robert smith is obsessed with 13. its amazing we got to be a part of this. [link]

oh and i'm updating on the 13th.

speaking of bands i grew up on did anybody get a leak of the new guns n roses song yet? probably not but i'd like to hear it. it's kind of frustrating as a musician when we record because i want everything to be perfect, i want to make songs like "welcome to the jungle" that everyone in the entire world knows and loves but it's hard. goddamn you axl rose for setting the bar so high.

but yeah i really cant complain about anything for once, my life is going pretty good, i have good friends and an amazing person by my side who is there for me through everything despite how fucked up my personal life can be. but at least they're kinda taking control of that and fixing it right now. i am excited about the baby, i read up on things the father can do all the time which is kinda useless because i'm never around. i won't lie this isn't exactly the situation that i wish my first child could have been born into, and who would want to have a kid with someone they're not married to or in love with? but all factors considered martin probably one of the most caring and nice guys i've met in a while, his selflessness is pretty admirable. i know considering the situation that should be a really hard thing for me to say and i won't lie it has been hard accepting that someone else will be known as dad to my child but without a doubt he's going to be good to the baby so it's rather easy to swallow. i really think it'll all work out for the best. i think in fact it's better this way because my kid will get to have an amazing person in their life that they wouldn't have otherwise. and i get to be with someone that has given me butterflies for a while. so over all, things are working out for the best.

other than that i don't think there is much else to say. this was a quick update thrown together before i head out to do the only thing i really do career wise anymore. it is fun tho for now getting to live vicariously through all of my touring friends' bands. i can't wait to be out onstage again, looking like i have talent while i play next to my three actually talented friends. i'm looking forward to touring again but also having an album done. like i said at the boost mobile bbq i always sign "pete fob" because i think a part of who i am should always be tied to my band. it should always be about fall out boy because i wouldn't be anything without them. sometimes i still think i'm not anything.

ps- so far i think patrick is right and it only eats your comments when you edit the entry after you post it because so far so good on my last ones. knock on wood of course.