she says, "i like the night life baby."

~

her heart is the coldest place ive been. ready to settle down but not six feet under. shine a light on this nasty bruise, as long as it remains i will be remainders of you. concrete brick walls. under neon lights in corner of the bathroom, she finds a life line. "this is" one really long blink later "the last time." the hip bones connected to the skull. "i swear." you drain me of my inspiration and paint the pallet with fresh blood dying brown around my eyes. rings of sleep circling blank eyes slipping down to my neck, maybe if i time it right itll choke me. ghosts of your past haunt the ones of my future. play the victim in a script you neverminded. flesh off the press. the truth is she let me go cause im still fighting, even if its nights up late with myself in the brad pitt edward norton way. the soundtrack to our lives shouldnt include interludes of an ambulance whurling by. a door slamming shut and empty promises decorating windowsills, autumn leaves before they blow away or get buried under by the winter. now at night my shadow crawls along the wall searching for your face. overheard in my dream, "no, he was alive once. but then he fell in love." heavy eyelids are a sheet of ice over dead bodies of water. drowning with a life jacket. you say 'i love you' like it's a contract, but one you break like hearts. i owe me to you, the truth is you have no reason to be putting me through this other than your own perverse pleasure, like a kid with a pack of matches in his back pocket and a magnifying glass 'burning up' on an ant. save my autobiography from the dust on library shelves. bat your eyes and swing them my way. plastic surgery for the personality impared. the light hits my face for the first and last time at once. nail me up in a coffin "return to sender". funerals are just to look at what you had and let go. i want to be watching my own from a hill with cheap sunglasses. thick skull darling. its only from all the thoughts of you wrapped around my mind.

wearentevolving.wearerevolving.

"i dont wanna hold her down, dont want to break her crown."

even if your not, ill let you be right if it helps you sleep at night.