real update later.

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  if you think the past is really behind you your just fooling yourself
ashes always settle somewhere
they never really disappear, just relocate
my birthday was forgotten by friends but remembered by strangers
this has never happened to me before
everything is backwards
thanks is the most bitter sarcastic word you can spit at someone
the only star in my sky is the one i constantly make feel burned out...
i'm sorry
i'm afraid to get too close and be the one burned
there are no excuses for it
only reasons for irratic behavior i constantly write off as "logical" in my head
in the end i see me in a padded cell staring over at yours longingly
wanting to be a part of your world
even if most of it is in your head
some call this demented i call it romantic
sometimes i can even call it hope