happy mother's day, ashlee.

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and happy mother's day to my mom, but she doesn't have a journal obv. it would be kind of weirdbeard if she did. everyone would probably hit on her haha. awkward. anyways since its mothers day i wanted to make a post dedicated towards the mother i see (or at least try to see) every day. i think about how my life has changed in a lot of ways because of ashlee and because of bronx- how having a steady and healthy relationship with ash, and then a son to clean my act up for completely changed my life. but her life has changed a lot too, just as much as mine has if not more. if you stick a mechanic in a math class to teach algebra- chances are he isnt going to know how to teach anyone right away. unless its like rainman but thats not the point. i dont think you can teach how to count 243 toothpicks that fall on the floor in that amount of time anyway. but anyways, if you stick a high school gym teacher into space- chances are he isn't going to make it a day without freaking out and hitting the wrong button. its like taking a fish out of water. ash became a mother in the same way. after one pregnancy test she found out she was going a mother. you cant learn everything about being a mom overnight- you cant even possibly learn it in a few months. you cant teach someone how to love someone else and how to raise them, how to care for them and keep them safe. but ash has adapted amazingly into one of the most loving mothers i have ever seen. ive never heard her raise her voice at bronx or yell at him, and she has an endless amount of patience and love. she quit bad habits that she had and even helped me quit some of mine (cussing, im mostly pretty good at it by now i think). this post (is shorter than i wanted but its ok- in a few days its two year wedding anniversary post time and) this post is to thank her for coming into my life and bringing our son into the world. ash? i am really glad that you picked me to reproduce with and keep around forever. i cant imagine having anyone else by my side through this scary roller-coaster that is parenting. the ups and the downs? i want you by my side through them all- not following behind me and not stepping ahead of me. holidays are about be even more amazing now that bronx knows what is going on- and then on that note we also have the terrible twos ahead of us right around the corner. maybe even other little ones soon. you give me things to look forward to, certain, solid things. i couldnt be more excited for all of it baby. happy mother's day.