"if only for today, i am unafraid"

~

  i'm the second your heart stops beating when his lips are pressed to your skin for the first time. take my breath away.

sometimes i feel predictable, the words i want to say already in the back of your mind. repeated over and over until they lose what little meaning they ever had. nothing is worse than the sound of nothing at night when you're in love. are you? these nights alone are terrible reminders of the nights with you in hotel rooms when the shadows eluminated the way your shoulderblades curve when your back was turned to me. the way my hands felt like they should wait in line before they even went near. a body you complained about was so ostensively perfect to me. a body that surely inspired love songs before our time and would after it if it could be preserved. i never understood why you let someone with as many flaws and failures as i have near you, why you felt my arms were worthy of holding you. of course i never argued it, just hoped you never came to your senses. sleepless dreams. wishing for the nights i slept through back.

you came to your senses.

secrets make us last longer. what we can admit to we can give up. you'll probably never even realize it but you'll live on in jealous hearts and eyes forever, even after you're gone. pretty one, so many people would still kill to be in your shoes and you act as if you're dying from it.

i dunno, blah. not a lot to report but i still felt like updating. weird. we got number one on trl for the first time with our new video, and i updated the cause i got kinda bored. and just now i think i nudged andy like ten times cause it's been like two weeks since the dude updated.

oh yeah- and stuff like this totally makes me swoon...i'm the second your heart stops beating when his lips are pressed to your skin for the first time. take my breath away.

sometimes i feel predictable, the words i want to say already in the back of your mind. repeated over and over until they lose what little meaning they ever had. nothing is worse than the sound of nothing at night when you're in love. are you? these nights alone are terrible reminders of the nights with you in hotel rooms when the shadows eluminated the way your shoulderblades curve when your back was turned to me. the way my hands felt like they should wait in line before they even went near. a body you complained about was so ostensively perfect to me. a body that surely inspired love songs before our time and would after it if it could be preserved. i never understood why you let someone with as many flaws and failures as i have near you, why you felt my arms were worthy of holding you. of course i never argued it, just hoped you never came to your senses. sleepless dreams. wishing for the nights i slept through back.

you came to your senses.

secrets make us last longer. what we can admit to we can give up. you'll probably never even realize it but you'll live on in jealous hearts and eyes forever, even after you're gone. pretty one, so many people would still kill to be in your shoes and you act as if you're dying from it.

i dunno, blah. not a lot to report but i still felt like updating. weird. we got number one on trl for the first time with our new video, and i updated the cause i got kinda bored. and just now i think i nudged andy like ten times cause it's been like two weeks since the dude updated.

oh yeah- and stuff like this totally makes me swoon...i'm the second your heart stops beating when his lips are pressed to your skin for the first time. take my breath away.

sometimes i feel predictable, the words i want to say already in the back of your mind. repeated over and over until they lose what little meaning they ever had. nothing is worse than the sound of nothing at night when you're in love. are you? these nights alone are terrible reminders of the nights with you in hotel rooms when the shadows eluminated the way your shoulderblades curve when your back was turned to me. the way my hands felt like they should wait in line before they even went near. a body you complained about was so ostensively perfect to me. a body that surely inspired love songs before our time and would after it if it could be preserved. i never understood why you let someone with as many flaws and failures as i have near you, why you felt my arms were worthy of holding you. of course i never argued it, just hoped you never came to your senses. sleepless dreams. wishing for the nights i slept through back.

you came to your senses.

secrets make us last longer. what we can admit to we can give up. you'll probably never even realize it but you'll live on in jealous hearts and eyes forever, even after you're gone. pretty one, so many people would still kill to be in your shoes and you act as if you're dying from it.

i dunno, blah. not a lot to report but i still felt like updating. weird. we got number one on trl for the first time with our new video, and i updated the cause i got kinda bored. and just now i think i nudged andy like ten times cause it's been like two weeks since the dude updated.

oh yeah- and stuff like this totally makes me swoon...

  it makes me smile to know i'm not like totally hated or something. i dunno about anyone else but there are some really romantic things written in that journal and i always wish some of them were secretly about me even tho i know they're not.

i want to make someone fall so hard in love with me they break their leg and can't get out of it.

anyways i almost forgot about this until now. just to show that some moms do approve of us... i altered the screenname a little bit but...

DLB164: one of my favorite things about fall out boy is that you guys turn us on to really cool music in addition to yours. Thanks. The Hush Sound is a really cool band. I love their sound. From, A Fall Out Boy Fan's Mom~ :-)
Pete: Haha that's really cool to hear. Thank you

and i got this to my away earlier-

DLB164: I just had to say that you guys fucking rocked at Bamboozle! SO MUCH FUCKING FUN! Oops.. I forgot, FOB doens't say the F word anymore! LOL From, Mom of a Fall Out Boy Fan

and there you have it.

"i wish i wrote more about the world at more distance from myself"

xo,
peterpanda