i wanted to put up an away earlier "napping with brandon flowers" cause his said "naptime" hehe.

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  late at night we fall asleep at the same time cause she said she likes to do everything with someone else.
she never said it mattered who.
late at night i'm laying on my back at night noticing every movement but my own.
the way the curtains hide mistakes rather than cover them up.
the way your hair falls over your face so you can forget me easier in the morning.
the way i can't tell if my heart is racing to get through to you or get out of this situation.
the spotlight never stops the liars it just lets them off the hook.
my only fantasies anymore are me holding a gun to your head until you feel exactly like i tell you too.
this must be what a coma feels like from the inside.
the shivers that start in your stomach and shake against your lips when...
i'm more complicated than either of us can figure out.
but at the same time all i need sometimes is a smile.
yours or mine it never mattered.
trying another shade of haircolor or adding another layer of eyeliner so you think i've changed on the inside.
so you can look me in the eyes again.
living down to my rep.
avoid me like the plague. this is a sickness.
the only cure is throwing everything away.
anyways...
OMG! w. axl rose has a journal and he already added me back.
that was pretty much the highlight of my day.
everyone else already mentioned it and i did on friendsorenemies.com but snl in march.
we are unbelievable but you are believing.
don'tstop.
kinda insane how many people give a shit about a loser from chicago and three of his bestfriends.
sorry hardly any of this makes sense.