I don't know anymore. It's one o'clock in the morning. My best friend might be dead. I don't know. It's very much a possibility, the last message I got was a request for me to kill them. Begging me actually. Unfortunately I didn't check my messages on time. Maybe she is just asleep. I hope to god that's all it is. If she's gone... maybe I could join her... i just want her to be happy. She's gone through too much. She doesn't deserve the crap she gets. She made a promise to me that she would keep fighting. I just hope she is going to keep it. But I wouldn't blame her if she doesn't. But... she means the world to me. I hope she responds tomorrow... fuck me. It's my fault.