she was a liar
who once had sparkles in her eyes
her heart
used to be filled
with love, joy and peace
all those drugs
that make life worth living,
until one day
it became cold as ice,
no more tender than a rock

she was a liar
who used to trust
too easily
and to love
fearlessly
sadly, she gave all that love and brightness
to the wrong people.
they did her dirty, mocked her feelings,
broke her trust
and her heart
in a million pieces

they made her stop believing
in kindness and love
and made her stop seeing
beauty even in the less appealing
she became cold hearted
and you could no longer
see joy nor love in her eyes

she started putting distance
between the people she loved and herself
with no bad intention but the secret hope
to protect her heart from being broken again.
my bad, did she know
how wrong she was
to keep everyone away from her
because not only does it prevent pain
but also joy and love and all those good things
she thought she could not live without.
and here she was,
becoming one of the girls
she used to think of as cold and mean,
but deep inside
who only wanted
to love without fear
of being rejected again

so she was a liar,
a fake, a bitch, an impostor
with a nasty smile on her face
as she walked by,
like a soldier and their armor

she was a liar,
and no one knew her real self anymore
but she was fine and unharmed,
there was no risk for her
of being hurt again

she was a liar
and had no sparkle
left in her eyes
but deep in her heart
remained the secret desire
of loving fearlessly again

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hii ! it's been a while lol 😭😭 tbh i don't have any good excuse, i was just very tired because of the coming back to school and had to deal with my anxiety rising... dw i'm doing better now but those last few weeks have been a bit hard for my mental health.

how are y'all doing ? take care of you ❤❤