Well I'm really sorry for the late update I was keeping unwell. So here's the new chapter hope the wait is worth and I hope I did not deviate from the story line as it's been long.

For the old readers who have already read this part I've written in bold from where the changes are so do give a read. So please scroll down!! **Puppy face**

It's been a day since Sidharth left and everyone were now back to their work. Shehnaaz came to naina and cried her heart out and told her not to say anything to sidharth by taking a promise from her and ofcourse Naina gave in. Sidharth is her brother but right now shehnaaz was not in a good state and she needed her more.

What we tend to forget is emotions are emotions whether for a girl or a boy, they just have different ways to show their emotions. In the case in which shehnaaz and sidharth were both needed someone right by their side and shehnaaz had but sidharth didn't.

On reaching the airport sidharth went to the washroom and punched the walls of the washroom. He was frustrated, sad and felt dejected and miserably wanted to cry but he couldn't do anything. He just couldn't vent out his emotions. He was not in a state and didn't know whom to talk so that he could vent out what he was feeling.

He boarded the flight in no time and called his mom informing about the take off. Sidharth just slept during the whole flight. He was hating himself for doing what he did to shehnaaz but he did it for his and her own good. He knew he would end up hurting her but it is better to end something which will give you a constant pain rather than keep on holding.

He loved her and he loves her and will continue to love her but the one reason for the distance he created was his possessiveness. He knew he would end up questioning not her but about the co actors. He trusted her but he didn't the environment and the people around.

(Hello hello no offense!! Just a fiction and just an imaginary man's pov!!)

Reaching Berlin the first thing he did was to inform his mom. He eagerly wanted to know how is shehnaaz and whether she is around or not. And he heard her voice and he felt nice. He wanted to talk to her but he couldn't so he hung up the call. Berlin some what suffocated him. He didn't feel any warmth from the city nor did he feel homely.

Lost in his thoughts he booked a cab for himself and went to his maasi's house. The sole purpose for choosing Germany was that the charges of staying will cost him zero and plus the college it was in top 20 colleges. The distance from the airport to his house was approx 45-50 minutes. He took out his phone and opened his gallery. He was never into clicking pictures. According to him the "memories created were to be stored in heart and mind and not on phone"

But shehnaaz was just the opposite and because of that his phone was filled with their pictures cuddling, kissing, hugging and one where he gave her front piggy ride, yes that's what shehnaaz said babbyy please if not back aap front hi de do please, mai koi badmashi nahi karungi pukka. . That day Shehnaaz was adamant on a front piggy ride, he smiled on that picture, well a cozy picture according to him which was clicked by naina. Hiding from naina she did kiss his neck at intervals and like hers he too had a weak spot which was his neck, and she smirked every time doing that challenging him. And he raised his brows accepting the challenge. And that day was a bliss making her crave for him and take her to her higher point. To the point where she begs him to take her.

"Say you want me love" said sidharth

"Sidh..aa..rrtthh please" she moaned

"Say baby you say and you get it" said sidharth again

"Ye..yes I..wan..t" she sttutered

"You'll tease me again?"

"Sidhharr..thh please no I won't" she cried

And that was it, thrusting her in playing with her mounds he did take her to her highs. Her moans had only encouraged him enough to get and go rough. Everytime they did intimate it was a new. It was like everytime exploring a new weak spot or a new way of taking her high. It was just not sex it was the intimacy, the love, the bond they shared everytime they made love. The basic of feeling of satisfying, the moans the groans was something he always felt proud of. Kissing each other for the last time both snuggled into each other.

That particular day was his favourite memory. Well everyday and the time spent was his favourite but he had some special favourite memories. The cab halted and so was his trance broken. Sighing he picked up his luggage paid the driver and entered the house. His new place for 2 years.

***
It's been 3 days and sidharth had no idea about shehnaaz. He was getting mad. His college was to be started from the next week but before that he just wanted to see her once on a video call or hear her which was not being possible. Naina also had no clue and this irritated sidharth more. For once he thought did he take the wrong decision? But his brain mocked and said "your possessiveness would never let her grow"

Sighing he video called Naina only to see that Naina was crying.

Naina what happened? Is mom fine? Did you hurt yourself? What happened naina Asked sidharth all scared

Bha...bhaiyaa..she hiccuped

Naina mujhe darr lag raha please say kya hua?

Bhaiya sheh..shehnaaz

And he felt like his heart had stopped beating hearing her name. He felt no floor within

Shehnaaz kya? He feared

"Shehnaaz chali gayi bhaiya..she left a letter for her parents mentioning she wants to be an actor. So she left bhaiya! She left this place and I'm scared bhaiya. She has switched off her phone." Said Naina in between her hiccups and cries

And sidharth felt the floor slipped beneath his feet. He was scared, scared for her safety.
Sidharth immediately hang up the call. He just couldn't show his vulnerable state to his sister. He felt as if someone did stab him right into his heart. His mind was shouting why shehnaaz? Why? He was all numb and was only thinking about the betrayal she did to him.

Who when and how? Who was she with? A boy or a girl? Why didn't she tell him that she was going to take a such a big step. How could she just betray him, his love? With all the negative thoughts sidharth rushed out of his house. He needed something to forget the betrayal or else his mind would blast. He walked and walked aimlessly for 10kms straight till the time he bumped into some girl.

Can't you see properly and walk? Shouted sidharth

Excuse me? The girl said

Where are you seeing and walking? The sky? He said gritting his teeth

Hey listen! It's you, you're the one walking aimlessly said the girl folding her hands and resting it on her stomach

just fuck off leave..look girl I'm sorry. I'm just very much tensed and my mind will blast anytime, I'm so sorry. I didn't intend to say it's just that

It's okay by the way I'm Aashi you're? She asked forwarding her hand for a shake

I'm Sidharth he said taking her hand for a shake.

Break up? She asked directly

Noo actually it's something else leave. I'm really sorry for my behavior I didn't mean to you know he said apologetically.

I understand and it's fine but sab koi meri tarah nahi hote so control on your anger Mr.

And that's when his mind mocked sab meri tarah nahi hote sidharth jo tera gussa bardasht kar le and with the thought that was running in his mind he immediately rushed to the nearby bar. He needed it today, and he desperately needed it. He needed to lose it.

And with the first scotch he felt his throat burn but more than that his heart was burning. And the second was refilled soon!

Drunk, betrayed and high on emotions he did what he shouldn't. Calling your ex when drunk is what shukla did only to listen the number you trying is switched off.

So he kept dialing until he heard the ring and it was like sidharth's biggest win and the first thing he said when the call was received was why shehnaaz? Such a big step and you didn't inform me how could you even think of ditching me and the line went dead and the phone was switched off again. But sidharth didn't stop neither drinking nor calling.

***
It's been 3 days since Sidharth left and I'm leaving soon. My phone pinged and I just didn't want to see who it is because I know it's not the one I crave for. It's not sidharth texting me. And I roll at the other side of the bed. After 5 minutes my phone pinged again and I dare not see who it is because I don't want to. Groaning I pull the bed sheet all over me and try to sleep, but this phone it started ringing.

"Fuck you kya hai meeti I asked picking up the Phone"

"Shaant devi shaant! Mai bs ye batane ke liye phone kiya kal ki tickets ho gayi hai and we are leaving. Tu sure hai?" Asked meeti

"Uhuum I'm sure! Aaj maa papa se last discuss uske baad nahi mane toh mai bhaag rahi hu" said shehnaaz

"Tune sidharth se discuss kiya tha?"

"Sidharth kaha se aaya? Or nahi maine nahi bataya usse time hi nahi mila. Mai jis din usse batane wali thi uss din usne mujhe bola uska Germany college me ho gaya mai aise situation me kya bolti usse. Ye sab chod tu ja packing kar and let me pack bye!"

And with this she hung up the call and cried again. How could she say sidharth that day it was a big day for him and for her too. How could she tell him that she planned to run away knowing sidharth would never agree on her decision and give her some other ways. But what other ways it was her dream, her dream to rise and shine.

Hardly did she know "jo idhar ho raha wo udhar bhi ho raha."
But that's how life is isn't it?
Don't we in real think that the other one might be happy, chilling and enjoying where the circumstances sometimes are just different.
Some Breakups happen just not because the love is lost or there is no understanding. Some break ups happen because the other person can be toxic and can break you to another level. The other person sees it in him or her that I can stand as a barrier in my partner's growth. So it's better to set each other free before it gets worst and toxic.

Shehnaaz talked to her papa and he was adamant that it's a no but so was Shehnaaz she was stubborn. She knew what she wanted and she does what she wants. She was any how prepared to run.

The next day early morning there was no sign of shehnaaz but just a letter that was kept on her desk. She did escape and no one could even guess or know that she could take such big step.

***
Shehnaaz switched on her phone and the first call she got from was from an unknown number. Her mind was saying not to pick up but despite the warnings she picked up the call and what she heard was something she didn't expect 'sidharth' she whispered so inaudible that it didn't even reach her ears. She disconnected as soon as she heard the word ditch.

Who was he and why was she a ditcher? Wasn't It him who broke all ties? So how is she a ditcher? He was the one who broke her? She alone was not to blamed. He was equally responsible.

***

The next day sidharth was found to be in an unknown surrounding with a very bad hangover. He pulled his hair in frustration. He tried getting up but his legs gave up. He tried to remember how did he land up here and where is he but nothing came to his mind except the last call to shehnaaz. He tried to locate his phone but he couldn't.

Frustrated he shouted "is somebody here? Where am I?"

And the door opened in a haste and the person said "you up, here take this you'll feel better"

"You?" Said sidharth all perplexed

"That I'm gonna explain later first have this and feel better" said the person

Sidharth gulped down the bitter drink and after 5 minutes he rushed to the washroom to throw up all the toxins. He was feeling much better. He washed his face and came out of the washroom.

"Okay so tell me how did I get here Aashi?" Asked sidharth

Well you were in that bar where me n my friends planned to meet, actually it's my friends place and we get exclusive discounts so that's out go to place. I found you there completely into phone and you were continuously Calling someone. In anger you threw your phone which fortunately did not break. I got you here because you were not in your senses and it was time to close the bar. So with the help of my friend I brought you at my place and here you're.

Thanks I owe you but for now I need to leave and started leaving.

Hey here's your phone and mention not it's totally fine. He took his phone and booked a cab.

I hope shehnaaz picks up your phone she said with a genuine smile

And his steps halted hearing her name he turned and asked anxiously did she call?

No she didn't but you were Murmuring something but the only thing clear was her name.

Sidharth left the place. In this unknown place he did find a genuine person. But his mind was to where shehnaaz was and with whom? With whom was something that was not leaving his mind. Was she with a guy friend? No not that he had problem, he was more than concerned for her because ofcourse she was young and beautiful and people can use her for there own good and he didn't want that.

SO THE CHANGES ARE FROM HERE! DO GIVE A READ.

He thought of not calling her this time. Why would he? He was the who broke all ties so he deserves the pain and the agony. She deserves to be free, free from him his love and his possessiveness. For a second he again thought to call her and atleast know who she is with so that he could relax but no why does he have to care? He cannot go to her and cannot create a mess for her knowing her past, she'd have a bad past and he cannot give her tough future.

But then sidharth smirked he had his own ways of finding about her for the sake of his own sanity. He atleast gets to know who she is with and within seconds he dialled the number.

Hello said the girl from the other side

He cleared his throat and said hello meeti

How did you even dare to call me sidharth? Shouted meeti on the call

Okay wait before you burst on me I just want to know is shehnaaz safe? Is she with you?

Sidharth you still care is all about you asked meeti

Great thought but not required for now..you can be angry on me infact slap me whenever I come to India but it's for her own good so please answer me she's with you right? Wo ghar pe letter chod ke gayi and she didn't even discuss or didn't even care to inform me bs bata de tere saath hai he asked genuinely concerned

Haa she's with me or bahut khush hai wo and please haa next time don't call me or else you see

He chuckled inwardly this little girl what would or can she do?
Okay madam next time nahi karunga khayal rakhna uska bs yehi bolunga

And with that sidharth hung up the call

He was at peace he knew meeti was a good friend of shehnaaz and meeti is there with her he was relaxed.

He went home and he was thrown questions and he lied within his teeth that a girl had a minor accident and he took her to the hospital and was there all night and his phone went dead so he couldn't call. I'm sorry Masi aagey se aisa nahi hoga

Mai darr gayi thi sidharth this country and city both are new for you baba upar se tu raat bhar ghar nahi aaya mujhe laga mai didi ko kya bolungi please next time se be careful bata dena mujhe number yaad kar le mera

Ji Masi next time se nahi hoga sorry

***
Shehnaaz had a small concert that was her break she did really sing well and the ones who attend her concert did make her video viral.

Shehnaaz was happy and content but now she was worried, worried to where she'll leave and what's next in her bucket. Is it even there or not?

Sighing she collected the money and went to her vanity where Harshit and meeti were waiting for her.

Yaar mereko bata kaisa hua she said cheerfully

Badhiya hua tere videos viral hue hai YouTube par and there's a song jisme tujhe as a lead actor cast kar rahe there's this song punjabi song bs tujhe audition dena hai let's see kya hota hai waise toh tu final hi samajh

Haye sach kha kasam she said like an excited kid

Kasam se ye to chota sa concert tha ab iss punjabi song ke baad you'll get many more. Your first step to success said Harshit motivating her

Her subconscious mind asked will sidharth see? But then she painfully smiled he did not trust her so she should also not think how him and after whatever he said last night made her heart cry. She did ditch him. But how when he was the one who left her because of his insecurities, or she should rather say he did not trust her.

Kaha khoyi hai tu? Asked meeti

Shrugging her thoughts she said Abhi mai select nahi hui hu but fingers crossed let's see. Lekin Abhi ek tension money bahut sambhal kar karna padega kuch bhi untill we don't get flat or pg to stay.

Well that's the real life struggle money. The main thing that runs the world money. Well nobody sees what you did and how you reached to that point. All they see is your money because money speaks. And that was the case with shehnaaz now she was understanding the value of money not that she didn't before. But now she had to move with whatever she had. She had some savings which she was saving from the day she decided to leave her but then for many days? She had to work, get work. She thought of giving her best in the audition. That was the only golden chance she was getting to get a break in the punjabi industry for her survival

They moved to a hotel a moderate one where they could afford and could even save some.

They took 1 big room with two beds. One double bed and one single bed because 2 rooms were of higher rates and this room in comparison was little less.

The room was big enough with an attached small balcony. Shehnaaz went to freshen up first and told them to order something to eat.

She came out wearing her PJ's and went straight to the balcony. It was small one with just two chairs. She leaned on the wall and sighed. Life had taken a twist in a week. Where she thought to be and how she thought to be and now where she is? How she dreamt of being in sidharth's arms and her she is all alone battling her feelings and career at the same time.

She looked up the sky and saw the full moon. She smiled remembering there first meet how he said two person dancing. She instantly looked to her right to find him as if he was there right beside her but he was not there, not there to hold her this time. She had her eyes filled with tears.

Hi sidharth! She said looking at the sky. We're under the same sky but you see we're still distant. I should not miss you but you see here I'm here missing you still despite you broke my heart. I so want to call you and pour out all the frustrations and ask you you didn't trust a bit of this relationship that it was so easy for you to break it. But then she remembered Last night he called her ditcher was he not the one who ditched her? But why would she call him. She gave away all his gifts to him but how could she delete all the pictures? How could she delete the memories? How could she delete the feelings that craved for him?

She slapped herself how could she still crave for him when he left her at the time when she needed her the most. She was not the one who was weak but she was in love and love makes you weak. More than that it makes you strong, to come out stronger. Shehnaaz trance broke when she heard the knock at the door, the food had arrived. They ordered simple food according to the prices it was just roti, aloo gobhi ki sabzi with dal and papad. But they were content with what they had to eat at least and not starve.

**
Sidharth was just changing channels in the tv. He didn't know what to do apart from that. The reason for him being far from her was nothing but his possessive nature. He knew he did wrong to her leaving her at this point but he had to because he wants to see his shehnaaz rise and shine, from nothing to everything. Though he being there would be her biggest support according to her but only he knew he would have ruined her by his possessive nature. He would have questioned despite trusting her and things would have taken a different scenario. He needed to work upon himself, his possessive nature so he just broke all ties with her.

Possessive nature can ruin your relationship and it can be very toxic. There's difference between insecurities and possessive. An insecure person would say I don't like you hanging out with your friends but then a possessive person would directly stop you from hanging out and this is what he didn't want to. He didn't want to stop her anything. She should take her decisions and live her life on her own terms rather he being a barrier in it.

He thought it would be easy for him to move on but it was just not love it was more deep. It was no it is an "emotional attachment."
The attachment which cannot be detached. And he was smitten not with her beauty but her purity.

Sighing he took out the locket he gifted her. It had her perfume still. The t-shirts she gave back all had her fragrance and he dared not  wash it.

***
It was 3 days and these 3 days were tough for them. Sidharth thought once the college he will be distracted and can concentrate wherein shehnaaz had given an audition the very next for her concert and today was her result day, she would know whether she will be selected or not. She had a mix feeling she somewhere knew she would be selected, she gave her best but she still feared.

It was sidharth's first day and no he was not excited he was pretending to be. He met new people and then he found a familiar face.

He went to her and said hi Aashi! Tu toh har jagah mil jati

Oh hi didn't expect you here..well well there's some connection I feel.

Maybe he flirted back

So meet my friends that day you were so drunk you hardly could remember them. And then a formal introduction with Aashi's  friends and he was soon into conversations laughing and joking around.

Shehnaaz got a call that she has been finalized for the shoot and she was happy because she knew this song would give her big break in the industry and she was all set for that.

Hopefully One more to go and that would be last! It's longer than the previous one. Next update this week. I just hope it's better than the last one. **Fingers crossed**

Please read it as a fiction! Okay?

Do vote and shower your comments please if you liked it. I've changed the part because I felt I was not able to connect and then plot the ending.