The best memories which shehnaaz and sidharth created together for two years. Their happy places, their fights, resolving the fight with a kiss to small make out sessions it was there small happy world but everything comes to an end and so was there time happiness and now was the time for the test. It was like both of them were seeing a beautiful dream which getting up was broken.

We always say happiness and sadness comes with an equal weightage. The more you cry, the more reasons to be happy about and vice versa so was the case now.

This is what was going to happen with them. Sidharth was facing a terrible situation to choose his love or to build his career and to choose both in this case was not possible.

Sidharth had applied for Pg from Germany. He had studied hard but he was quite sure that he won't be able to bag the seat and he'll do pg from India from the same college. But destiny!

Shehnaaz and naina had given their 12th boards and waiting for their results now.

Sidharth was sleeping when he heard his phone beep. There was mail from the college of Germany and his eyes popped out. Never in his dreams thought that he would clear the exam in first attempt and the first thing that came to his mind was Shehnaaz. Was he strong enough and mentally prepared to leave her? And he very well knew the answer. He couldn't. He had both the college's in hand AIIMS Mumbai and The college of Germany and he couldn't decide. First time in 22yrs he was in a dilemma. The thought of being emotionally attached to her was killing him inside. He loved her and he loved her madly he knew that. But to keep it at a safe pace for he himself he would always say I'm emotionally attached to you and that's something which is more than love.

Sidharth now knew why was shehnaaz feeling restless that day when he discussed about the college. She knew he would qualify and she shed tears but she was happy for him. At the end of the day it's his happiness that matters to her the most. But before realising that she had an outburst.

Sidharth aapne apply kar diya or ab mujhe bata rahe? Mann bhar gaya aapka mere se? Paka rahi hu ab mai aapko bolo she said grabbing his collar and punching him. Mai har kuch aapse puch kar karti even the dress which you don't approve I don't wear and aapne itni badi chupayi. Shehnaaz was now losing it and she wanted answers and Sidharth gave her answer by making love in the best possible way, making her feel special, kissing her with all love and affection, torchering her, making her crave for him. She kissed him hard biting his lips when he was torchering her by just playing with her. Sometimes biting sometimes giving her wet kisses and he deserved punishment

Sidharth maine munh tod dena hai aapka you still have the audacity to tease me  she said making sidharth throw his head back and laugh out loud and so shehnaaz did something that was very unexpected for sidharth. She made a bold move making him shiver and she rode him taking him high to the road of ecstasy. And when he was high shehnaaz stopped and smirked.

Shehnaaz he groaned

How does it feel to taste your own medicine? And he knew She was bolder than he could think off.

You gotta regret it baby and with that Sidharth flipped the position and she moaned sidharrrtthh please.

How does it feel he said groaning

Yaar please jao aap chodo mujhe..mujhe nahi karna kuch you're so much into teas..and her words died when he kissed her thrusting in, taking her high.

Both laid down tired wrapped in a duvet.
So you'll leave me? Asked shehnaaz

Baby listen to me I'm not leaving you. Not now and never you get that. Even if you give me 1000 reasons to leave you I'm not because I can't live without you. We'll fight, we'll be angry on each other we may not talk for a day but at then end of the day you know and I know that we come together.

And shehnaaz cried again I can't live without you sidharth mujhe bahut mushkil ye pyaar ye khushiyaan mili hai. Mai selfish sound nahi karna chahti mai bahut pyaar karti hu aapse aap jao lekin please mujhe chodna mat sidharth, you think long distance can work?

Mai bhi meri jaan or abhi to maine paper bhi nahi diya baby let's see what happens. You know jab tak tu nahi tha it was my dream college lekin jab se tu aayi hai I want to live here with you and with my family. And long distance will work baby if our love is true it will.

Sidharth mujhe kuch kehna hai

Uhhum I'm listening baby

Mujhe acting pursue karna hai lekin mere papa nahi maan rahe..I want to be an actor Sidharth I've always seen a dream of me in the industry getting love awards and what not

Sidharth knew this would come she had always said but now that she was confident that she wanted to persuade it as her career he would definitely support. He can never come in between her dreams like she hasn't ever come and has been supporting. But still he asked her because of his insecurities and Ofcourse everybody in a relationship has that You sure baby?

100% she said

Okay then go for it was all he could he say. Ofcourse he couldn't stop her, he knew she had that potential. But deep down hearing what shehnaaz said he was in a turmoil. He was insecure and his insecurities were killing him side. She is pretty, beautiful, hot and cute all at the same time. And she will get all sorts of attention from the male in that industry she deserves the love but where will he stand in all of this? Will he even stand in that life of hers? Will she forget him?

And all his insecurities were blown when she kissed him hard sucking his breath and said I love now then and forever. There's no you and no one can replace you in my life. And with the confessions they went for a second round.  

Sidharth trance broke when his phone rang and he smiled but the tension was how would he tell her?

Morning baby chirped shehnaaz

Morning sweetheart

Aap Abhi uthe hona? 10 baj rahe sidharth.

Uth gaya hu darling

Acha chaddo mai ye bolne ke liye phone kiya maa papa ja rahe shaadi me and I'm staying at your place. I'm so much excited.

Wooaah baby he tried to sound excited

Off lag rahe aap? Kya hua? Nahi aau?

Nothing meri jaan or tu kyu nahi aayegi tera hi ghar hai. kab aa rahi tu ghar?

Maa papa ke saath in half n hour.

Okay sweetheart come soon I'm waiting.

Okay bye love you

Bye sweetheart and hung up the call.

Sidharth came out of the room freshen up. Maa I need to talk to you said sidharth

Don't tell me teri Germany wale college me ho gaya his mom said excitedly

He sighed and said yes mom

Sidharth beta I'm so happy that you're going to Germany for your PG. Your dreams are finally coming true. You did it mera bacha. I'm so proud of you so so proud of you. Mai abhi Pammy ko inform karti hu. Pata hai wo gurudwara gayi thi teri liye. Kitni khush ho jayegi

My dreams he whispered. It was me who always wanted to go to Germany and study but why am I not happy. Two years two fucking years I've to stay away and she will move on in her life. Ofcourse long distances don't work and why will she wait? 2 saal bahut hote to move on and plus she'll be in a industry where she does not need my attention. She will have many friends to give her attention but what about me will I be able to move on? No. I can't

Kaha khoya hai tu Sidharth?

Mom I can't go

His mother frowned and said Don't be a fool sidharth what is wrong with you? It's you who wanted to go what happened now?

Mom I don't think I can live without you and without her he whispered the last words almost inaudible

Sidharth bewakuf Mat ban ye kaisa reason hai nahi jane ka?

Maa I need time to think plus I even have in hand AIIMS Mumbai college. Let me think and let me decide maa.

Dekh beta maa hu teri you think I don't understand. Kaun hai wo?

And for a second sidharth was shocked his breath stuck in his throat but listening who's that girl he felt relieved. He never wanted shehnaaz and him to be caught under any circumstances. They have been careful no infact very very careful. Shehnaaz is young to be tagged that she is dating or anything. It's their personal life and he just wanted to keep it personal.

Mom there's no one I'm just in a dilemma. Mujhe kuch waqt chahiye mom. Just give me sometime.

Take your time but decide what's right okay?

Yes mom don't worry he said smiling and it was then the door bell rung.

Auntyyy shouted shehnaaz hugging her.

Aa gayi meri gudiya maze karenge humlog said Sidharth's mom

Pura pura maza aunty maine to pura gossip list ready rakha hai she said giggling

Motii itna padhaai me bhi dimaag laga acha hoga said sidharth

Aap uski tension mat lo mai aise bhi 9 2 11 hone wali hu jald hi she said showing her tongue out.

And what does that mean sidharth asked all perplexed.

Nothinggg she said winking

Her parents soon left and shehnaaz and sidharth's mom were gossiping when Naina joined them.

Naina and shehnaaz fell into conversation when shehnaaz's mobile pinged with a notification and shehnaaz couldn't help but smile.

Naina she whispered
And before naina could say Rita aunty said ' khana kha lena me going to Mrs. Sharma's house I'll be back soon. Or please zyada masti nahi padhayi karni hai ok?

Yes aunty shehnaaz said smiling. And with that she left

Waah meri to zarurat nahi padti aaj kal mocked naina

Aisa nahi hai aadha se zyada time toh tere saath rehti hu mai kitne mushkil se planning plotting kar ke milna hota hai usse please mai turant aa jaungi whined shehnaaz

Drame na kar mereko pata hai shakal nahi dikhayegi jab tab tak mom wapis nahi aa jati said Naina

Abey yaar tum log ka mujhe samajh nahi aata tere pass rehti toh tere bhai ka complaint rehti or uske pass rehti to teri complaint. Kya karu mai marr jau? Mujhe kahi nahi jana mai ghar ja rahi she said dramatically

Acha acha ja tu fir to mere saath hi hai, tu bhi kya yaad rakhegi ja jee le apni zindagi sana teased naina

Mere matthe hi padne the tumlog haye rabba

Ab jaa na kyu wait kara rahi bhaiya ko in your language go went gone ho ja chal bhaag said Naina walking to her room and shehnaaz walked to sidharth's room.

Hi baby she said jumping on him and wrapping her legs on his torso and nuzzling her nose on his neck

Hi baby he said rubbing her back

What's wrong off lag rahe aap?

Baat karni hai tujhse shehnaaz he whispered. He feared her reactions but more then he feared himself, his decision. He was still in a dilemma, he didn't know if he still wanted to go or not. Right now life was giving him tough choice his love or his career. He knew she would support him and would go to any extent. He knew she loves him and she will never say no but he feared himself. He was not so strong of leaving her. After that day of discussion she has prayed everyday for him and somewhere he knew that she is ready for long distance but the question arises is he ready?

Sidharth kya hua? She asked cupping his face and kissing his forehead.

Shehnaaz I've got mail from the college of Germany

Ho gaya she whispered

Haa he said. He looked into her eyes trying to find answers but for the first time he couldn't find any clue.

She kissed his forehead again and said then let's celebrate I'm so happy for you. Finally you'll be living your dreams. Why are you sad baby? I'm happy baby I'm very happy. Aapko ye baat bolne me itni tension ho rahi thi? Ammaa I'm so happy

Shehnaaz can you please stop pretending he shouted.

I.. I.. I'm not pretending sidharrth. Mai sach me khush hu or ek baat bolu mujhe pata tha aapka uss college me hoga. Maine rab ji bola tha daily bolti thi ki mere sidharth ko saari khushiyaan mile she said rubbing her thumb on his cheeks.

Tu pyaar nahi karti na mere se isiliye khush hai? Mai jau or tujhe freedom mile, parties, late night fun with your classmates ye sab tu mere presence me nahi kar payi kyuki tu toh mere saath thi. It was me n you always having fun. Mann bhar gaya tera mere se? Haa bol he shouted he was losing his mind how could she take it so easily. 2 years 730 days and you're happy with the seperation haa bol tu mujhe chodna hai tu. Khatam tera pyaar, mai kabhi nahi chodungi aapko khatam tere promises bol he said cupping her neck.

Kya karu mai fir kya karu bolo aap she said hitting his chest trying to come off of his hold. Mai kya karu bolo aap she said crying. Mai kabhi apke career ke beech me nahi aana chahti or kabhi nahi aaungi or ye jo bakwas hai na aapke dimaag me late night parties or jo bhi bakwas bola aapne sab dimaag se nikal do aap laggi samajh? Aapse se bhi zyada ye mere liye tough hone wala hai. Maine apne aap ko kaise prepare kiya hai I know it toh na aap ye bakwas mat karo she shouted

Tujhe fark nahi pad raha to mujhe kyu pade and I've decided I'll go, I've to be there in 15 days. Enjoy here sweetheart he said sarcastically.

what did he want to hear from her he didn't know he just the knew the fact that he loves her but she was ok leaving him and why will she not ofcourse she can't have a boyfriend tag to the industry she is going on. His mind was blocked with all the negative thoughts and he was losing it.

Enjoy seriously? What enjoy Sidhaarrthhh? You enjoy there okay, mere se achi ladkiyaan mil jayegi aapko somebody of your standards and your profession and have the best nights fuck them okay? Pyaar karti hu aapse milkar we could have found a way long distance works but no aapko to ye pada hai mai yaha parties or get together karungi. Manna padega itne ache sochte ho aap mere bare me. Ab chodo mujhe jana she said equally pissed off. But he only held her tight rubbing his hands inside her top.

Sidharrth leave me please mujhe jana hai

Abhi se hi chod rahi mujhe he said making her more pissed.

Chahte kya ho aap bata do

Mai tujhe chahta hu.. kyuki bs tum hi ho

Mujhe to aap chahte hi ho mere alawa kya chahte ho? Abhi iss situation me jaha hum lad rahe hai

Tujhe chahta hu and he threw on bed softly taking off his t-shirt he grabbed her waist and kissed her and they made love and with the last thrust he said 'bahut pyaar karta hu tujhse shehnaaz you can't even think off' and to say that shehnaaz was shocked would be less she was numb. His actions always spoke but today after what he said her ears were ringing with his words.

He snuggled into her and his hands rubbing on her waist. She turned to his side and rubbed his cheeks. She had tears in the corner of her eyes. I love you sidharth I love you she said kissing his whole face.

Them fighting and ending up with sidharth expressing his feelings gave shehnaaz a new wave of positivity. She knew they both would try hard to make long distance relationship work and plus she was running away from her house which still she hasn't discussed with him. Despite making her father understand he didn't agree and at last she decided to run with her friend meeti who also wants to pursue acting. But now was not the time to discuss all this. She wanted to shower love on him with the days they had together.

Sidhaarthhh ek bolu

Bol na dalin sun raha

Mujhe na bahut positive lag raha I feel we can make long distance work

He just hummed

Sidharth bolo aap bhi kuch

Mai kya bolu shehnaaz let's see kya hota hai baby.

Two days and shehnaaz and sidharth spent it together sneaking around. Sidharth wanted these two days to be the best because he had taken a decision and that would just not break her but maybe break her soul. But he had to do it because he didn't have a choice.
He had to do it  for her own good.

Sidharth's mom was the happiest and shehnaaz too, she tried her best not to show her vulnerable side which she even succeeded in.

It was 2 days before when sidharth had to leave that afternoon sidharth called her to the terrace. She happily went and hugged him but he did not hug her back.

Kya hua aapko? Off ho? Hug bhi nahi kar rahe she said tightening her grip.

Shehnaaz we need to talk and please listen to me and understand okay

You're making scared sidharth kya baat hai?

Dekh shehnaaz ye mai waha se bhi kar sakta but then mujhe samne samne karna tha because I didn't want you to think that I've changed going from here. Ye long distance nahi chalega shehnaaz pehle it's the time difference, second tumhara profession meri or teri duniya alag hai shehnaaz. You've alot to explore or mai apne cheezon ke liye bahut possessive hu. I can't handle any men near you khair wo chod tu that is a different point. Thirdly mai waha busy ho jaunga or mai itna time nahi de paunga tujhe kyuki obviously padhaai hai bahut kuch hai or tera bhi tu new hogi iss industry me, you've to adjust tere shoots n all honge or fir mai nahi chahta you carry this relationship baggage with you. To mai tujhe free kar rah raha khud se or iss relationship se. You're free from me and from this love. Let's see if in future we get to meet or not but abhi ke liye it's over between you and me. Mai bs khud ko hurt nahi kar sakta shehnaaz and I know tujhe lagta long distance works but tu khud ke bare me soch or apne career build karne me okay

He waited for her reaction to atleast say something or shout or scold but nothing came. Silent tears flowed from her eyes and she turned to leave and just said THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING and left from there.

She went to her home took out all the gifts that he had given his t-shirts, cards and even the dresses he gifted her and put everything in a bag and called Naina.

Naina you home?

Haa kya hua itni low kyu lag rahi hai tu? Ladaai hui kya tum dono ki?

No ab to all sorted hai realise karne me time lag gaya but never mind mai aa rahi tere ghar kuch dena hai tujhe and with it she hung up the call.

She rung the door bell and to her surprise sidharth opened the door but she did not spare a glance. She called for naina and she knew aunty would be reaching home soon so she had finish everything soon.

Naina came at the hall and saw shehnaaz and sidharth standing at a distance and she knew this time it was something very serious.

Here Mr Sidharth Shukla are all the gifts you gifted me. I don't need it anymore because ye agar mere saath rahegi to mai kabhi move on nahi kar paungi. Thank you for everything for this beautiful yet broken 2 years. I would have burnt all the clothes and gifts but I did rather give it to road side people to wear it before burning. So these gifts, they don't belong to me anymore. I'm sorry I didn't know your world and my world was different. Mujhe humesha se lagta tha mai or aap ek hai and we will make this relationship survive despite the fights. But jo aapne kaha bahut sahi kaha you n me are not meant to be together. Thank you for clearing everything and trust me no hard feelings for you. I still can't hate you and I think I never will. Have a good life ahead. And here this locket kisi or gala dhund lena iske liye I'm sure Germany me you'll find someone of your standards and definitely your profession. Her voice was cold and stoic that sidharth feared her. And saying she left the house.

Bhaiya said Naina

Not now naina and it's okay she has to be strong for me for her with that he left for his room.

Sidharth and shehnaaz both were broken and both of them were fighting their own battles. Sidharth never wanted to be harsh on her but he had to. He knew he cannot handle men's around her and he would end up destroying her career. He had to work upon him and for that he needed space. Shehnaaz on the other end was cold. She had closed all the doors of her emotions because she can't fall weak not this time. People come and go and so was sidharth. Ofcourse she'll not stop loving but she will also not beg for his love. If he does not care nor does she not this time when he has been so harsh and hard on her. She was all prepared to leave her house. She would leave a week after sidharth's departure. She and meeti both had a got a concert. They both were good at singing. It was to be done in Punjab. That would be the first break for them.

Two days passed in a blink of eye but for sidharth and shehnaaz it was the toughest. Shehnaaz was in his house she could not deny Rita aunty. So she masked up a happy face and went to his home. Naina hadn't talked to her because shehnaaz either didn't pick her call or she wouldn't talk to her when at her place. It wasn't naina's fault but shehnaaz needed time which she didn't get.

It was the day when sidharth had to leave. He had his flight in the afternoon. He was all prepared all set and he wanted to meet shehnaaz for the last time. He knew that won't be possible she will not come but still he had hopes.

He said Naina to call shehnaaz knowing she would not pick her calls too but still one last time and this time also she didn't. Why would she knowing it's sidharth trying to know about her.

Sidharth left for the airport with a heavy heart. He had cried at nights and he would not dare to move to the balcony at night, because those balcony have witnessed most of their patch ups and hugs.

Shehnaaz was no less the day he left. She went to meeti's house and cried her heart out. She couldn't face him nor she could show him that she was craving for his love. She loved him he loved her but one decision and the role of the destiny.

Okay this is it for now!! I hope this part was a justice.

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