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Sidharth I knew aap aaoge mujhe pata tha you'd come on vacations she smiled hugging him but the next moment sidharth not reciprocating made her feel sad. Why wasn't he reciprocating?

Sidharth she whispered nuzzling into and kissing his neck.

Sana please he said breaking the hug I've someone you should know

And she stood numb hearing that. "Someone I should I know"she whispered to herself. You are kidding right?

Her name is Annie he said

Your girlfriend completed sana

Umm yess he said a bit hesitant

But I still love you said sana teary eyes

But I love her! He said feeling guilty

Maine kabhi nahi socha tha aap aise badlenge said sana controlling her tears

Sana please don't make this tough for me said sidharth

Sidhaarrthhh sach me aapke liye tough hai? Like seriously? You still have the courage to say "don't. make. it. tough. For. you.?" Waah aap to mere se bhi bade actor nikle. Everybody please clap. Oh it's just me here so let me clap for you and she did clap for him.

Please sidharth jaye bahut tamasha ban gaya hai.. infact ban gayi hu mai tamasha aapki life me.. I'm sorry and she knelt down covered her face with her palms and cried and he left. He left her again all alone!

Annnd cutttt!!

Fantastic shehnaaz what a shot! It seems surreal only if the director knew how hard it was for shehnaaz. She feared the same thing in her life. What if he has moved on and here she still thinks he will realise his mistake and come back. It's not that she'll forget and forgive easily. But eventually she will forgive him, and her thoughts broke when the director congratulated the actor.

Great job Mr. Oberoi(co-actor named as sidharth in the series) said the director
Okay so season 1 will end here if it goes hit which surely will, we will be starting the shoot season 2 after the teaser that is precisely after a month!

Shehnaaz was a bubble of happiness for the people on sets. She would just set the atmosphere so positive and happy for others. She would crack jokes and her stories well those were something people always believed. Even if it was of the ghosts in her village.

Well Shehnaaz got her break after the song in the punjabi industry and currently she was shooting for a webseries of TVS. Slowly shehnaaz had started growing and her name was growing not only in Punjabi industries but outside too.

These 6 months had been very tough for shehnaaz. From accomodation to her love life. It hadn't been easy. To say shehnaaz has moved on her love life, the answer would be no. She believed in destiny. She believed in what has to come in your will eventually. And he was the only one who understood apart from her mom. And like he said it was not love but more than that, they were attached not only emotionally but by soul.

Shehnaaz had started from the scratch. She didn't have any godfather behind her. Infact not even her own father was supportive. But her mother has been in constant touch with her and she's happy for all the success and failures she got in her career. And Naina she was happiest. Naina was studying in same college as Sidharth in Mumbai. She was living her life to the fullest and she stood by both of them, her brother and her best friend.
Sidharth never asked about shehnaaz whenever they used to talk and neither did she say anything. Naina was mature enough to know that she shouldn't intrude in their personal lives whatever be the matter. It's either both of them wrong or the situation is wrong.

Shehnaaz had recently found out that Sidharth had an Finsta account and she had stalked him to a high level because the account was public. She not only checked his following and follwers list but even the bar that showed tagged pictures and there she found a girl. The girl being exceptionally clingy on him. But what she noticed was his hands wrapped her waist no she was not jealous but what strikes her was did he really love on? And for a second she thought "is the wait even worth?"
And the next thought no she is not waiting for him she is waiting for someone who did fix her broken heart and not him.

She sighed and logged out of her account. She was hurt. He had really moved on in life "maybe." She just played her no there favorite song and whenever anyone of them would get angry, this song was to played and a sorry would do. They had made promises when the song continued to play, her eyes closed and she was into this song again humming and relieving those memories.

Flashback!
Shehnaaz was angry on sidharth because of a very petty thing according to sidharth but for shehnaaz it was big. She was craving for donuts, pizza and what not so she just texted sidharth to bring donuts for her from her favorite bakery shop and he forgot.

I'm sorry mai abhi order kar deta hu na mai sach me bhul gaya

Kutte ho aap she said faking her anger

Kutta bhi or aap bhi nice nice he said dramatically

Aap na hato mujhe baat nahi karni sidharth please cold drinks bhi nahi laye aap..maine aapko isiliye 2 baar msg kiya tha.. me going home now sidharth mai khud order kar lungi bye

And he knew she wasn't going to listen to him because on her periods she becomes really grumpy and cranky and he had to pacify her.

So he grabbed her and pulled her, locked his hands on her waist. He tucked the the lose strands of hair at the back of her ear and started humming. Locking his hands with hers he moved side ways and started singing

Kasam hai tumhe tum agar mujhse ruthe
Kasam hai tumhe tum agar mujhse ruthe
Rahe saans jab tak yeh bandhan na toote

Where in she completed the song completely lost

Tumhe dil diya hai yeh waada kiya hai
Sanam main tumhaari rahungi sadaa

And then both sang together still in each embrace
Ye raatein yeh mausam
Nadee ka kinaara, yeh chanchal hawa

He whispered in her ears I'm sorry meri jaan. Look I've ordered it will reach in no time. And how could she not melt
I love you she whispered kissing his forehead

And after 20 minutes she was into donuts and pastries devouring it.

**

Sidharth was no less he was more than restless in these 6 months. He came on Finsta because he friends pushed him on joining and he had given him. Coming on the social site he did search for shehnaaz and then he made a fake account with so random name just to check on shehnaaz. He couldn't follow her From his own so why not stalk your ex with a fake id. the fake account in which he only followed shehnaaz gill. He would wait for her posts and had the notification on whenever she posted anything. He would have a genuine smile whenever he saw her story giggling, pranking on the sets. She loved socialising and indeed a social person. But at the end what mattered and hurt him was those fake smiles sometimes genuine but most of the time faking around.

Talking about his college it was going great. He was and is "single", he definitely got proposals every now and then but he used to refuse it politely. Aashi and kushal were his best friend and both Aashi and kushal did not believe in love so they were okay "with no strings attached" and they even ended up making out.

When living in an unknown city is hard here sidharth was living in an unknown country. Living in Berlin was not easy. He was homesick. He missed his mom, his home,his family and ofcourse shehnaaz. He realised his mistake within the first month of his break up but he didn't have the courage to face it. No, he was not weak he was just not ready to face her not after being so rude to her, and having breaking up on such a petty issue, Leaving her when she needed him the most. He definitely deserved her hatred, he blamed himself for being selfish. But was he really selfish? Would he really let her grow when he was with her? And the answer was still no. He couldn't and maybe he still can't. He was weak as weak to leave her when she needed him the most. He feared his possessiveness for her.

When we see all the glam world we only see gold but all that glitters is not gold and sidharth was altogether from a different profession.

To make him understand certain things would something be torturing for shehnaaz and it would take a mental toll on her and he definitely not wanted that. He was weak but on a second thought he was strong enough that he took the decision. He had to, he wanted to explore himself, his tolerance level.

"Possessiveness is nice only if the other person is not feeling suffocated"

And his only fear was this. He would maybe, just maybe make her feel suffocated in this relationship. He was fighting with his own insecurities. In these 8 months he realised he loved her truly and moving on is not an option. But here he was trapped, he couldn't go to India and her coming to Germany well that was a dream sidharth saw daily which he knew was not possible.

It was 29th december and the week of new year had approached but for sidharth it was just another day.
The plan for 31st was all set! But was sidharth ready for the plans? No! He wanted to stay at home and welcome new year with his family on call and masi. But he was tired of denying the constant plans his friends were making. So he agreed for the plan. They had decided to go to Hamburg via train. They were leaving on 30th December.

**
Shehnaaz was listening to the song on repeat mode and had slept thinking.

Meeti walked in the room and saw shehnaaz sleeping. She removed ear pods from her ears and with the sudden disturbance shehnaaz opened her eyes.

Hey when did you come? She asked meeti

Just now sorry I disturbed your sleep but we've flight shehnaaz.

Uhhuum what's the time? She asked groggily

We still have an hour to leave, get up n freshen up fast said meeti packing the last moment things.
Shehnaaz had her concert on 2 Jan and they were flying to Hamburg. They had planned welcome new years at Hamburg. Shehnaaz was super excited for the trip.

She has been to Canada, Australia and now it was Hamburg. She was all ready to explore the city. But more than that she was wanting to see him, if even for a second. She knew it's just a 2-3 hours journey to Berlin but she didn't know where he lived and spoiling the trip who stood by her always no she couldn't spoil the trip for someone who's so weak that he can't face the reality and why would she go? Did he try to contact her in these months? No. Being on social media he didn't even send her a hi, so why will she spoil her trip for him.

She sighed and then thought of the places she's going to visit there and that was the main reason of getting the ticket done early. They wanted to roam around the city, explore, eat, click pictures and make memories. Deep down she had a feeling that maybe she could get a glance of him but chances were zero. What will he do in Hamburg when there's so many places to visit in Berlin. Shut your brain shehnaaz just don't think about him. It's been 6 months and he must have moved on.

30th December (night)
Shehnaaz had landed at Hamburg airport and she had that excitement and she felt butterflies in her stomach, the same feeling when sidharth had asked her out. She didn't know why her mind and body were reacting but she was happy, genuinely happy!

She thought maybe it's the vibe and a good sleep on the flight that she is feeling so positive and happy. Shrugging away her thoughts she proceeded to the hotel. The next day was going to be all tiring because all they had to was roam around city and explore it.

Sidharth was in no mood to travel so when his were friends busy planning,he was sleeping.

Reaching Hamburg the gang decided to rest as they had their plan for night. Well the couple's took the room and Sidharth went to his cozy single room.

30th December (night)
Sidharth and his group of friends left for pub around 9 pm, where sidharth decided to keep himself sober. After the blunder he did of Calling his ex he didn't drink because he knew he would definitely end up calling her and no he was not ready and plus talking to your ex when drunk it will only mess up things.

So the others were drinking where sidharth preferred mocktail. His gang danced, drank like fish in water.

It was late night when huffing and puffing he threw everyone at their respective rooms and went back to his. Tomorrow was going to be tough then he could off.

Shrugging away his thoughts he went to sleep.

31st December (morning)
Well sidharth had his breakfast in his room. He knew his friends will not get until 12 and it's better to join them in lunch. He had his breakfast and called his mom. While talking to his mom l, she suddenly mentioned about shehnaaz. Well she used whenever her song or anything came,she would be the happiest and today also she mentioned it again

His mom : Pata hai sidharth, shehnaaz ki webseries aa rahi

Sidharth : nahi mom, mujhe nahi pata hai. And he did lie.

His mom : trailer abhi aane me time me I'm so excited. Bechari baat hoti hai meri kabhi kabhi usse. Humesha dikhati hai ki khush hai par uski khushi aankho tak nahi pahuchti. Pata nahi kab uske papa manenge

Sidharth : maan jayenge mom, sab kuch acha hoga aap batao Naina kaha hai? Thik se padhaai ho rahi uski?

His mom : haa abhi bahar gayi hai,aaj jayegi shaam tak

Sidharth : oh party kiske saath gayi hai mom? It's 31st maa

His mom : tu bhi bahar hai na maine kuch bola? Nahi na

Sidharth : Okay maa mai samajh gaya. Mai bahut miss kar raha aapko..mujhe jaldi aana hai

His mom : miss you too bacha

Sidharth : chalo fir me raat me call karta hu aapko take care of Naina aaye to msg me

His mom : have fun beta, take care

Sidharth : you too maa

And with that he hung up

**
Shehnaaz woke up in the morning with the same feeling she had last night. Feeling butterflies in her stomach and because of it feeling all fluttery.

Haye rabba ye kaisi feeling hai. Kuch gadbad na ho jaye. Haye waheguru Ji Mehar karna.

Freshening up and having breakfast they started roaming around the city.

Well okay I've never visited Hamburg and everything is just my imagination and nothing relates to the reality. So please don't go and search on google. It's all imaginary imaginary!!

The first they decided to visit a water park. Well shehnaaz heard from some of her friends that the water park is a must go. And meeti knew after going there they can't go anywhere because it takes alot of time and plus all the strength but shehnaaz was adamant on going to the water park first and meeti had to listen to her at last. Taking a cab they made there way to the water park and she like an excited kid ran inside after reaching there.

(Well there's no water park in Hamburg maine google kiya mujhe kuch nahi mila)

water park full of adventurous water rides ,water slides, splash pads, water playgrounds, and lazy rivers , so colourful and fun.

And shehnaaz was super excited to ride on all the rides.

The first ride being Zuma ZOOMa
Slip, slide and do a 360-degree loop-de-loop on the Zuma ZOOMa water slide.Riders start in a launch capsule before the bottom drops out and they plunge more than 7 stories on this high-speed water ride.

And this was hell a exciting ride and shehnaaz went for the second time too and meeti was confirmed now they are not going anywhere today and spending the whole time in water park.

The next ride being Quadzilla
If it's not enough to race against just 1 slider, hop on a mat and slide head first down Quadzilla, a 4-lane racing slide and speed through tunnels before splashing down and discovering which rider was first to the finish.

Harakiri
This water slide takes you down, levels off at mid-way, and then takes you down again. After you have reached the bottom it carries you up with the force of your momentum till as far as you'll go.

And shehnaaz went on as many ride she could, happy and enjoying with meeti.

It was 4 and both the girls were hell exhausted. Meeti was scolding shehnaaz because she took most of the rides two times and now they couldn't go anywhere except the hotel to rest, so that at night atleast they can enjoy and welcome new year.

Well in sidharth's case each friend had a bad hangover and even after trying lemonade and black coffee they were just not in their high spirits, so sidharth went alone to explore some places nearby to the hotel and informing that he'll be at an Indian restaurant & bar by 8 so they better be there because he ofcourse does not want to welcome sleeping on the bed.

Sidharth explored a few places nearby and around 8:30 he was at the restaurant where his friends were waiting for him.

The music played at the background and there were many dancing, some drinking, some of the couple's kissing. He thought of shehnaaz and realised he hasn't checked his Finsta today and he has no update about how she is celebrating her new year.

He was about to tap on her story when Aashi pulled him to the dance floor and both of them were dancing.

The starters were being served and this time kushal and Aashi went for cocktail, they had a very bad hangover last night and they couldn't afford another.

Shehnaaz and meeti on the other hand slept like there's no tomorrow. They had come back by 5 and instantly slept.
It was 9 when her cellphone rang. She woke up when the phone rang for the second time.

Waking up lazily she took the call. It was Harshit. He couldn't join them because of his work commitments and was to join them on 1st Jan if his works get's over.

Haa Harshit shehnaaz said in her sleep

You're sleeping woman..how can you? No pub no restaurants nothing he asked all shocked

What's the time we were tired so we slept. We thought to leave by 8 she said

Woman it's 9

What the f phone rakh we have to go yaar shit bye and she hung up

She woke up meeti and that was the toughest thing. By 10 both the girls were ready and by 11:15 both the girls were infront of an Indian restaurant

It was around 11:15 when Sidharth went out for fresh air, he was feeling suffocated inside and as soon as he went out, he saw 2 girls wearing a black bodycon dress coming and his eyes went wide when the girls were coming close. He turned around and said to himself no no he's dreaming, hallucinating actually. But I haven't drunk which means she's here? But how n why? Fuckk why didn't I check her Finsta account.

He gave himself a pep talk. He needed it today. Moving inside the restaurant, and with fortitude he moved towards the girls who were at the bar. He tapped the shoulder and said "Hey"

To which shehnaaz replied turning "yes, You want an autograph!"

Hello Hello!!
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