Sidharth's pov!!

Khwaabon ka kab tak loon sahara
Ab toh tu aaja khudara
Meri yeh dono paagal aankhein
Har pal maange tera nazara

It's 1:30am n I'm trying hard to study. I had to study and I have to study because I've my exams in the coming week but but what a beauty she is. Ugghh! From the time I've seen her to now it's just hours...no correction 5 hours n 30 minutes.

Ahhh no no I'm not that desparate how I sound. I remember because exactly at 8 I came out as my mom called me for dinner.
To be honest I shouldn't see her that way but I can't help myself. I'm sure she's the one who stopped me from smoking. What a lovely voice she has but there's something that her eyes says.

All the smiles and laughter was all fake. She didn't seem be real n instead fake. I kept stealing glances from the corner of my eyes. While I was stealing glances she caught me n choked n me worried. Oh no not because I was caught but because she choked her food. I instantly got up and started patting and hitting her back lightly. Ofcourse lightly I do gym and it will be tough for her to even handle my hand weight.

She smelled blue berries. Fuckk!! What am I thinking. I'm sorry it might sound creepy but I just couldn't control my fascination for her. Oh no no I'm not being lustful I don't know what is it but it is something.

Well I don't believe in love at first sight and reel life or novels. But why do I feel this that everything I've read it in a romantic..that butterfly feeling in my stomach..the jitters oh my god all is happening with me. Am I in love? Am I falling for a person whom I've just met? Is it even possible? What the fuck does love really happens like this? Like all of a sudden?

Oh fuck I gasped it's 2:00 what the hell..the hell if not study sleep sidharth. But sleep was far away. I went to the balcony and lit up the cigarette. I was gazing at the moon and puffing cigarette when I saw a couple like reflection on the moon and they were in a dancing.

I patted my cheeks sidharth you need to sleep. You're very tired everywhere what you see is something romantic. And just as I was about to move crushing my cigarette I froze. Oh am I hallucinating? What is she doing here at 2 oh no to be more precise it's 2:10.

She caught me smoking. Gosshh!! But why am I worried? Why I feel sweat beads on my forehead. Why am I nervous? She's just a neighbour and my sister's friend. And a sister's friend is no no not even in my dreams. She is also my friend. But what if she calls me bha...oh no no don't complete the word. I can't imagine that. Go to bed n avoid her. But wait what is she doing here at night? Isn't she sleepy? What is disturbing her? And I decided to break her thoughts by clearing my throat I said heyy! Still awake?

Shehnaaz's pov!!
Well I was sitting with Naina and her mom along with my parents. They were chit chatting and I and naina were laughing seeing memes on friendsgram.

Later we sat at the dining table and he came out of the room. I kind of froze at my place. TDS oh tall, dark and handsome. His eyes met mine and a millisecond eye contact and my gaze was diverted because naina was showing something on the phone. He came and sat just opposite to me.

We were having dinner and he was stealing glances I could feel his continues gaze on me and suddenly I met his eyes again and his eyes as if drinking my features and I choked my food.

He stood up instantly and started patting my back. He smelt mint. Ughh I'm coughing my eyes are filled with tears and what I'm thinking is his smell. But he smells nice my mind snapped at me.

I was now calm and he passed me a glass to drink water. After the dinner he went to his room and came back after 5 minutes. My mind snapped and said why did he go only to come back in 5 minutes. I stared at him for good 5 minutes when his mom said to talk him about the subject I should choose. I was hesitant but even excited I could talk to him one n one. I felt butterflies in my stomach.

We left for home but before that I and naina shared numbers and I saved it as " neighbour naina " I went back home and all I could think  was him. I told my parents to get the room while I sleep on the couch. They didn't listen to me but I forced them and I lay down on the couch.

All I could think was about him. But I can't fall all over again. I don't have enough stamina for another heartbreak. How could I possibly think of even falling for him but life does not go as planned and this falling for him will cost me my life. He's a perfect husband Material a family man. And me my life all messed up. I don't deserve him. He deserves someone who's best and I'm definitely not the one.

Being tired still sleep was nowhere. I saw the time ant it was 2:08. I went to the balcony of the other room. As soon as I opened the balcony door I could smell smoke and I knew the terrace guy was here. But to my utter shock it was sidharth. Uhh ofcourse sidharth no bha...I can't even complete the word. A friend's brother is not a br....ammmaa

I saw him gazing at the stars and puffing cigarette. I felt like I was drinking his features. His forehead showed frown lines. His tiny little eyes his long pointed nose and his lips it's not super full but the bottom lip is interesting. His upper lip is not exactly symmetrical yet this man can I say man or a boy I'm confused. Whatever a man or a boy he's sexy. His chin a perfect jawline. It's like my eyes has captured his picture in my mind.

And my trance was broken when he said hey! Still awake?.

I shyly nodded my head and my cheeks I'm sure it's pink. You're also awake?

And his answer gave me a shock ' you didn't let me sleep '

Oh my god me? How I didn't let you sleep? I asked him out of curiosity

Ahh no I meant there was something missing in your eyes. Like you laugh but not whole heartedly it's all fake and I'm not able to get what tension is a 17 year old facing.

I was shocked at his analysis would be an understatement I was shook to the core and I gasped hearing it. And for the first maybe in this year I felt my cheeks wet. Tears flowed from my eyes and I just couldn't control I sobbed and sobbed and he just couldn't do anything because we were standing at our own balconies. Though close but divided by the pillar.

When he couldn't hear more he said to open my door as he was coming to my house at 2:30 in the night. And I said ' are you mad? You've lost it right?

No I haven't stop crying or else open the door. I instantly stopped crying and looked at him. I said it's late I should sleep.

Shehnaaz and sidharth both went inside. Shehnaaz slept instantly but for sidharth sleep was nowhere. He kept on thinking what must have happened that she cried so much. And why is couldn't see her crying. Thinking and thinking He slept in the morning around 5.

He groaned when the sunlight peeped in his room. He hardly slept for 2 hours. He pulled the curtains and slept again. It was 11 when he heard laughing sounds and voices coming from the dining hall.

He groaned and pulled pillows on his head but seconds he realised that it's shehnaaz and he rushed to freshen up. He came in the hall greeted his mom morning by kissing her forehead.

His sister was no where to be seen and he had a chance to talk. He told his mom to get him breakfast while he councils shehnaaz.

Hey he said meetings her eyes...she looked fresh as a flower.
Hi she said looking into his eyes and she could see dark circles and baggy eyes and she knew he was tensed about her and had not slept properly

Okayy!! Not making it awkward for you coming straight to the point why did you cry last night?

Ugghh no it's not like that...I mean it's just that no one was ever concerned about what I feel or what I want but you...you noticed it and it was tough to control my emotions. Actually it's been a year since I cried but your concern made me realise that maybe like maybe I'm also important. I exist.

Look shehnaaz I don't know what have gone through but I can assure you one thing whenever you need me...I meant it whenever even it's 2:00 at the night just call me and here take my number.

And shehnaaz saved his number as  "NEIGHBOUR'S BROTHER" and he saved it as "MY NEIGHBOUR"

N coming to your councelling just go with the flow...study what you want to..do what you want to do not what others want you to do okay?

Yes and she smiled the smile the way he wanted...the real one. Her eyes shined like stars and he was happy seeing her happy.

Just then his mother came with the breakfast and smiled so decided what to take

Yes mom.. she'll take the subject she which makes her happy and that's commerce.

His mother lovingly caressed her hair and said god bless you and may you succeed in any field you go.

Thank you so much aunty and the breakfast is yummy.

While his mom left to clean the kitchen

Shehnaaz said aap toh doctor ho why do you smoke?

Sidharth smiled and said pehle cool bane ke liye or fir adaat ho gayi.. I tried to leave but couldn't. It has become an addiction now.

Uggghh!! Is it Tolerable ? From the next part the story will gear up!! And abhi tak decided nahi whether sad or happy!! Please do vote and comments if you liked it!!

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